If only...
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If only he had fully appreciated the long term consequences of his actions.....
Maybe it would still have happened - who knows.
Car insurance has doubled in price - home insurance has tripled!!
Jobs are even harder to come by.
Holidays abroad are a dim and distant memory. A trip to Australia to see family and friends will now likely never happen, even once this is all done and dusted.
The PTSD when the door knocks or his phone rings - automatically assuming it's bad news.
The shame and guilt that I feel when trying to be normal around people who don't know.
The ever present terror that it will be in the paper and I'll need to try and explain something I don't truly understand.
The long nights lying awake, unable to sleep.
Not being able to spend precious time together with the grandkids.
If I could have sat him down before he went down that rabbit hole and told him what the consequences would be. Maybe it would never have gone this far and changed our lives forever.
Maybe it would still have happened - who knows.
Car insurance has doubled in price - home insurance has tripled!!
Jobs are even harder to come by.
Holidays abroad are a dim and distant memory. A trip to Australia to see family and friends will now likely never happen, even once this is all done and dusted.
The PTSD when the door knocks or his phone rings - automatically assuming it's bad news.
The shame and guilt that I feel when trying to be normal around people who don't know.
The ever present terror that it will be in the paper and I'll need to try and explain something I don't truly understand.
The long nights lying awake, unable to sleep.
Not being able to spend precious time together with the grandkids.
If I could have sat him down before he went down that rabbit hole and told him what the consequences would be. Maybe it would never have gone this far and changed our lives forever.
It depends on whether he was an addict, if he was, its an illness, and anything u could have said would have made no difference unfortunately :(
Not an addict - just a very depressed man who couldn't admit to depression because he 'didnt believe' in mental health issues and was brought up thinking men don't show their feelings/can't be vulnerable.
If only he had been brave enough to talk to me, someone, anyone, before it went that far.
If only he had been brave enough to talk to me, someone, anyone, before it went that far.