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Hi,
Right not been here for a while, not going to lie after a while it started to get me down rather than help. Now I dont know who to ask for help from.
Life since the end of 2022 has been s**t to say the least. Husband arrested for indecent images, around 6 suicide attempts, cancer scare, arrests, finding out id been sent to 7 people i now know (videos/photos) withouth permission. Then finding an email for a porn website (watchmywife) as the log in, 1 month before we got married this email was sent.
I then tried to move on to be controlled and manipulated by a narcissist that kept throwing me away for me to run back like a lost puppy. I now know this was a trauma bond. This ended once I lost it hit him and he headbutted me. I know I shouldn't of hit him. But this man laid hands on me whivh my Husband never did.
In this time myself and children were threatened with a machete and spat at in our town. Once again police did nothing but come out with pretty guns.
Anyway thats a whats been going on.
What I really need help with. Is being ok with my kids seeing their dad. SS have said he is no risk to them multiple times (my PTSD therapist called them, also said she needs popcorn to listen to me)
They do stay at his (lives with mum and sister) they only go as a pair and sleep downstairs. Im so torn because despite everything he is a good dad and loves them just as they do him. But I cant help but feel guilt and shame for letting them go. I have a lot of weight in my shoulders about the whole thing. I didnt want to break my kids ever thats why I never kept him away for them but I feel like such an awful person.
Its crazy how much I put myself through for something I didnt do. Even nearly 4 years later im still heartbroken and cant understand.
Sorry for the rant I really needed to just get it out.xx
Right not been here for a while, not going to lie after a while it started to get me down rather than help. Now I dont know who to ask for help from.
Life since the end of 2022 has been s**t to say the least. Husband arrested for indecent images, around 6 suicide attempts, cancer scare, arrests, finding out id been sent to 7 people i now know (videos/photos) withouth permission. Then finding an email for a porn website (watchmywife) as the log in, 1 month before we got married this email was sent.
I then tried to move on to be controlled and manipulated by a narcissist that kept throwing me away for me to run back like a lost puppy. I now know this was a trauma bond. This ended once I lost it hit him and he headbutted me. I know I shouldn't of hit him. But this man laid hands on me whivh my Husband never did.
In this time myself and children were threatened with a machete and spat at in our town. Once again police did nothing but come out with pretty guns.
Anyway thats a whats been going on.
What I really need help with. Is being ok with my kids seeing their dad. SS have said he is no risk to them multiple times (my PTSD therapist called them, also said she needs popcorn to listen to me)
They do stay at his (lives with mum and sister) they only go as a pair and sleep downstairs. Im so torn because despite everything he is a good dad and loves them just as they do him. But I cant help but feel guilt and shame for letting them go. I have a lot of weight in my shoulders about the whole thing. I didnt want to break my kids ever thats why I never kept him away for them but I feel like such an awful person.
Its crazy how much I put myself through for something I didnt do. Even nearly 4 years later im still heartbroken and cant understand.
Sorry for the rant I really needed to just get it out.xx
This I can understand as one of my best friends was in an abusive relationship
he was sadly killed by his abuser some years ago she was sent to prison for 12 years
we his friends collectively set up a charity to help male victims of abuse
over the years I've worked with many charities which help women there is 100s out there that can help
firstly well done you for speaking to us
There is a really good app called
HUB OF HOPE which will signpost to people in your area that can help amd advise you
x
he was sadly killed by his abuser some years ago she was sent to prison for 12 years
we his friends collectively set up a charity to help male victims of abuse
over the years I've worked with many charities which help women there is 100s out there that can help
firstly well done you for speaking to us
There is a really good app called
HUB OF HOPE which will signpost to people in your area that can help amd advise you
x
I have been away from this man since August last year, it was more of a catch up on life has got no easier.
What im really struggling with is the fact I let my kids see their dad. Am I doing the right thing? Will they hate me if they ever find out? I also hate the thought of anyone finding out and having to explain myself.
Unfortunately ive had no real mental health help for everything despite begging. I also do not trust talking and people not getting SS involved like my therapist did even though there was no problem, because it had already been dealt with.
What im really struggling with is the fact I let my kids see their dad. Am I doing the right thing? Will they hate me if they ever find out? I also hate the thought of anyone finding out and having to explain myself.
Unfortunately ive had no real mental health help for everything despite begging. I also do not trust talking and people not getting SS involved like my therapist did even though there was no problem, because it had already been dealt with.
As the old saying goes
your caught between a rock and a hard place there's no right answer
but your strong you just have to trust your own judgment
your caught between a rock and a hard place there's no right answer
but your strong you just have to trust your own judgment