Hope everyone is doing okay today.

Hopefully coming to the end of this soon, the legal side of this that is. Two whole years... but now comes the dread and worry about sentencing and the media. We have a two year old so preparing for social services to return again with all the awful questions and judgement about staying, not caring about his severe mental health side of things.

'Prepare for all outcomes' was what the magistrates said as they sent it to crown and requested a PSR. Trying to keep my head above water as sentencing is creeping up, doing the best I can to keep my OH from spiralling.

I'm struggling with the fact I can't control what's coming... it's inevitable and just trying to take each day as it comes, making memories incase it's a bad outcome.

Ive stayed with my OH. He's not a bad person, and I can see how much he's hurting. He's getting lots of support now and engaging with services which is one of the reasons why I've stayed to support him. We've got so use to the new normal that I'm afraid of what will happen next in terms of restrictions with the SHPO and the restrictions from social services. I just keep telling myself that although it will be hard and things will change again, it won't be forever.