Going through this again...
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This is a really hard post to make because I'm still trying to piece the puzzle together when they're not fitting.
We went through our first knock around 2022-2023 (I can't remember) but my ex got done for IIOC, he admitted to it and his explanation to it was he had telegram and was in these groups and somehow photos and videos on there were saved onto his phone. I guess because I never heard the real story; only his story, I forgave him and because I loved him. Anyway, because he admitted to it and co-operated with the officers, his sentencing was two years on the register.
Fast forward to this year, we have welcomed a baby boy. I am the happiest I've ever been and having a baby is what I've always wanted. We got our second knock this Tuesday just gone...
This time, our dog alerts us and my ex answers the door. After that, I haven't seen him since. I think my entire world turned upside down, I'm now in insane protective mode over my son.
I guess I'm just struggling.. all our devices taken but luckily I still have my phone. LO contacts me the next day and tells me they've already found evidence on his phone, however not his current phone but an old phone that recided in our letter draw. Ex is also denying any of this, apparently has no idea what's going on.
Still waiting on SS to contact me, I'm worrying about it so much.
My son and I have moved out of our current flat and are currently sofa surfing with family.
I also feel like I have imposter syndrome, because I forgave him the first time, I feel like it's my fault we are having to go through this again but this time, with my baby.
We went through our first knock around 2022-2023 (I can't remember) but my ex got done for IIOC, he admitted to it and his explanation to it was he had telegram and was in these groups and somehow photos and videos on there were saved onto his phone. I guess because I never heard the real story; only his story, I forgave him and because I loved him. Anyway, because he admitted to it and co-operated with the officers, his sentencing was two years on the register.
Fast forward to this year, we have welcomed a baby boy. I am the happiest I've ever been and having a baby is what I've always wanted. We got our second knock this Tuesday just gone...
This time, our dog alerts us and my ex answers the door. After that, I haven't seen him since. I think my entire world turned upside down, I'm now in insane protective mode over my son.
I guess I'm just struggling.. all our devices taken but luckily I still have my phone. LO contacts me the next day and tells me they've already found evidence on his phone, however not his current phone but an old phone that recided in our letter draw. Ex is also denying any of this, apparently has no idea what's going on.
Still waiting on SS to contact me, I'm worrying about it so much.
My son and I have moved out of our current flat and are currently sofa surfing with family.
I also feel like I have imposter syndrome, because I forgave him the first time, I feel like it's my fault we are having to go through this again but this time, with my baby.
So sorry you're going through this for a second time and with the birth of your little boy as well. My ex-partner had the first knock in 2021 when we had just met (I never knew about it) and then the second knock 4 weeks ago. Have you asked officers what triggered the second knock? That might help understanding as awful as it is to hear what potentially happened. It somewhat helped my understanding as I tried to piece together what on earth has happened. I hope you can get support from loved ones and support for both you and your little boy. Sending hugs x
