Hello, I'm new here. I'm glad I found this place, as I'm struggling so much right now and really need to vent. The knock only happened 6 days ago. They came in around 7:30 in the morning and 2 of his devices were taken. I didn't know anything about it until he came back from the police station and told me everything, so I was in total shock and confused. I’ve been with my fiance for 5 years. We’re already planning to get married next year, and of course I see him as my long term partner with all our plans and everything. My whole world turned upside down after the incident. My head in constant battle, always thinking, I feel like it's going to explode. I am devastated, angry, scared, and very anxious of the future, feeling like having an anxiety attack anytime soon.



I still love him, so decided to stay with him as I know he is good but made bad decisions. He immediately told me everything after he came back from the police station and still telling me of things he thinks he left out, which I is good as I know he’s being honest with me. He is very remorseful and very ashamed of what he’s done, and immediately got in contact with the available resources for help. His parents know about it and are supportive as well.



I don’t know what to do with myself and I feel like having an anxiety attack anytime soon. I have told my best friend as she’s the only one here with me. I’m very glad I have her. Although I think I need more help. I’m afraid of the future, the media presence, what my colleagues and friends will think of me for staying, my job, our safety as in where we live. I’m just holding on to the fact the he has been honest with me and determined to do everything to help himself. I know everything is still raw and not to make any rush decisions, it's all just difficult.



Any advice would be truly grateful. Please take care, everyone. And please feel free to message me regarding this. Thank you for reading.