I know the title looks crazy and it isn't entirely true. I've been waking up more anxious than ever, heart pounding really badly. Thank god I recently started therapy, one from this site, and she's been really supportive about the prospect of me building a future with my partner. SO has been very understanding, answering all my questions, making all my meals and generally trying to calm me as I try decide what I'll do. I think I'm leaning towards staying which I know sounds like a crazy idea - we're not married but have been planning that and we don't live together but were going to. I just can't imagine life without SO.



I guess I wonder if it's inevitable that people find out. That was my biggest fear but there was no media at all. SO is already estranged from family and I'm set to be estranged from family too so I wonder how much kids will appear in our life. SHPO is for 5 years and SRO is for 10 (and I'm pretty sure you need to tell the guardians of kids who you're around for more than 12 hours? correct me if I'm wrong) and if this is something that we can just wait out. We're both pretty young, early 20s, far from when people start having kids. I'm trying to imagine dealing with social services when I want kids and it's hard to think about. Does any of this ever get easier? Do people generally find out?