2 days ago my boyfriend of 7 years was arrested for posting/downloading indecent images of minors. I only found out about this from a knock at the door from the police.

Im absolutely devastated and still in shock. He had told me several months ago that he had an addiction to pornography but I never thought it would ever have gone this far.

I decided yesterday that we were now over as I couldn't see a future for us now and I'm now leaving our home until he has removed his things. I can't be here with it all as it's just too hard to look at.

Although I have my family and friends around me, I still feel so alone. I see all this stuff online about how to deal with a breakup but this isn't just a normal situation. I didn't leave him because I didn't love him anymore or because we wanted different things. I love him more than I can describe. He was my entire world, my best friend. I'd planned on marrying him, starting a family and it was all taken away within a matter of a few hours.



He's on bail till September but then I don't know what happens. He's been seeking help already and we are still in contact. I don't think I could cope going no contact - this is hard enough. I've told him I'll support him through this as I know he needs me but he does also understand that if I can't continue, then I'll walk away.

But how do I even begin to deal with this? It's been so traumatic for me and I think I will end up with PTSD from this. I have a past with mental health and I can't believe he'd do this to me.

How can I move forward without crying all the time and learn to move on?

Im so glad a forum like this is available because at least I know, I'm not the only one.