Got the notification that his file had gone to CPS 3 weeks ago. Yesterday, his bail was brought up from end of September to next week. While we haven't been told, we're fairly certain we know what this means- charges.

We're 9 months down the line from the knock, and I was an absolute mess at first. But I got help with my mental health, looked after myself, fought with social services until they left us alone on a safety plan. I've been doing so well. But now I can't stop myself spiralling. I was doing so well, life felt almost normal and I could get on with things 99% of the time, but I can feel myself slipping back into that dark place. I'm so scared. Scared of my mental health going to hell again. Scared of people finding out. We have such a unique surname- I've never met someone with it that we aren't related to, I'm terrified of the knock on effects if my students or colleagues find out. Scared of the judgement. Scared of dealing with him being on the SOR for maybe 10 years and how thats going to affect our lives. Scared he won't cope. Scared of having social services back in our lives. I wish I knew how to get out of my own head.