How to find peace?
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Hi everyone.
I'm almost 6 months post knock. 6 months since my ex-partner was arrested and he has been held on remand since. Trial is next month. Although I'm functioning - seeing friends, working, going on holiday with my family - I also just feel like I'm always carrying this heavy sadness within me. I miss him more than I ever thought possible. I miss the life we had together and the future we had planned. Despite all I know now, the betrayal, deceit and the horrific things he has done. I still miss him. I've never felt so alone. Even with incredible family support, I feel abandoned in this mess he has created. Does it ever get any easier? I wish I could just switch off every feeling I have for him.
I'm almost 6 months post knock. 6 months since my ex-partner was arrested and he has been held on remand since. Trial is next month. Although I'm functioning - seeing friends, working, going on holiday with my family - I also just feel like I'm always carrying this heavy sadness within me. I miss him more than I ever thought possible. I miss the life we had together and the future we had planned. Despite all I know now, the betrayal, deceit and the horrific things he has done. I still miss him. I've never felt so alone. Even with incredible family support, I feel abandoned in this mess he has created. Does it ever get any easier? I wish I could just switch off every feeling I have for him.
I don't have any advice, I just wanted to say that I feel the same. The grief is constant, although heavier some days than others. xx
I feel every bit of your pain. That awful feeling hanging never leaves... im about 10 weeks post police raid of my brothers house. Wife and children present at the time. And i am drowning. I cant believe my brother is this person ... Never in a million years would I have thought this would land at my door. I have some really great friends who know and have been amazing. Other friends I have just told something awful has happened and life will never be the same. And people are like u feeling better yet.. I just feel this will never get better.I do not want a relationship or any contact with my brother as I cannot forgive what he has done to my mum my SIL and her childrens. But to ensure they dont go to a contact centre i do facilitate supervisions. I am sick to my stomach when i see him! So bloody angry! The ripple effect is massive! With so many fall outs between so many people. I hate this life and hate even more ive been thrust into it through no choice of my own.
