Ten days ago my brother took his own life after a failed attempt 2 years ago. Initially we were consumed by grief losing our wonderful brother and son. Yesterday morning my sister by chance came across an article on the internet saying he had been charged with having indecent images on his phone in 2024. This was just before his first suicide attempt he was charged at court last Friday and took his own life on the Saturday. I am at a total loss my head is a mess I am swinging between grief and anger at the moment. As a family we haven't told anybody but I am aware people will find out and I am ashamed and worried about the stigma on myself and my children. My husband has been fantastic but he doesn't understand a lot of my feelings. At the moment I am struggling with sympathy and words of love for my brother with I know he doesn't deserve. I have a lot of shame and not sure how I can return to work. Any advice would be gratefully received I am off work my husband and children are at school and work and I am feeling very alone at the moment.