It has been 2 years since my step-son was arrested for offences online. It has been a difficult journey being a step-mum throughout their teenage years and, not having children of my own, has been a very steep learning journey. When this happened, I had to (and am still doing) alot of soul searching whether I had/have the inner strength to go through this and to be honest, I am still not sure I do. I am filled with so many emotions; stress, anxiety, resentment, anger, confusion, sadness and many many more. Mostly I feel overwhelmed and mentally drained as it is hanging over everything we do. I find I am the rock for the family but the rhetorical question is, who is mine? I have started seeing a therapist and am starting to do things for me but realising that probably isn't enough and need to do more but having the thinking space and energy to do more is hard.