Well hello!
It has been a looong time since I posted, as I took a step back and had to do the business of life! Or building a modicum of a new life...

It will be 4 weeks tomorrow and his SHPO ends and suddenly tonight I have been gripped by that old fear. You'll know the kind, utter feeling of dread, heart beating out of your chest kind of fear and for no reason!

He was just turned 16 at the knock, sentenced at 17 - given a YRO and a shpo. He worked well with youth justice before being transferred to probation who wanted him to then leave the family home but we navigated that and he didn't have to. He then got his autism diagnosis. Because of the shpo he had to sign the register.

He is now 22, has a good job and is working his way up that ladder - he couldn't continue to attend college and so worked in a warehouse, before being repeatedly promoted and his life is how on the right path.

So why tonight do I feel so utterly terrified all of a sudden? It's that old feeling returned...

Thanks for taking the time to read, not sure if any of the older lot (time wise not age such as upset and smile etc - bought a face cream instead of a dishwasher, a puppy instead of the house renovation - all self care gamechangers!) are still lurking who remember our story xx