When it seems like you can’t go on
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People will have read my son was sexually abused from around 7/8 for 3 years. We found this out a year ago. Then 3 weeks ago we got the knock from the police regarding images and have fallen into that nightmare. Today one of my children passed their driving test and an odd feeling came over me, I felt happy. It felt strange and unfamiliar. I realised my life has become so unbearable every day that I am in a constant state of misery. It made me think why go on. I have to of course because of my children but I feel like I might as well be dead. All that lies ahead of me is misery. I will never get over my sons rapes/attacks and now what he has done. Nothing makes me feel anything close to happy and I inflict myself on my children and try and pretend I am ok but I imagine I do a poor job.
I have tried the GP and they were no help. Pills do nothing and because I lost my mum, dad and brother within the last 4 years the only counselling I can have is Cruise
how do people imagine a future? A better place? I have had a year of horror and now I face at least two more and the aftermath of that.
I am not living I am exising, just about. Do others feel like this? How do I find the strength inside myself? People cope with horror and go on. How?
I have tried the GP and they were no help. Pills do nothing and because I lost my mum, dad and brother within the last 4 years the only counselling I can have is Cruise
how do people imagine a future? A better place? I have had a year of horror and now I face at least two more and the aftermath of that.
I am not living I am exising, just about. Do others feel like this? How do I find the strength inside myself? People cope with horror and go on. How?
You're not alone Rebecca.
I too get how you're feeling, the idea of continuing on is so unbareable when you're in a state of limbo and secrecy.
I guess it's because of those moments of happiness that you continue on. The future is bleak but it's not all darkness.
Have you tried a different GP?
I too get how you're feeling, the idea of continuing on is so unbareable when you're in a state of limbo and secrecy.
I guess it's because of those moments of happiness that you continue on. The future is bleak but it's not all darkness.
Have you tried a different GP?
Thanks for replying. I'm not a fan of GPs. The pills never work and nor does the 5 min chat. How are you doing x
Hi Rebecca
I cannot imagine what you're going through with the revelation about your son as well as the knock. There's an organisation called MOSAC I've heard mentioned on here. They should be able to support you.
Take care xx
I cannot imagine what you're going through with the revelation about your son as well as the knock. There's an organisation called MOSAC I've heard mentioned on here. They should be able to support you.
Take care xx
Thanks I used to speak to them but now he is classed as a perpatrator it's in their rules I cannot speak with them. They were good but I've found the people on the helpline here better actually. Mosac is a bit like the Samaritans they just listen and oh and tell me more occasionally but find the helpline here have ideas and suggestions which suits me better. Thanks so much for taking the time to suggest them.