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I've been separated from the X for nine years now but last October I got a phone call from the police to tell me my ex had been arrested on suspicion of downloading and that my 12 year old wasn't allowed contact with his father and social services would be in contact!!, he was realeast same day under investigation, I had two phone calls of social services in the first few weeks and nothing since of the police either. SS told me my lad could have supervised contact with his dad but I would have to arrange it so I made it very clear that I was not doing that after already raising concerns with the X partner son when we first seperated, he was 21 and texting my 13 year old daughter at the time, courts saw sense over a lot of issues including allowing contact with my children, son was young so was allowed to stay with dad on the Standard order whilst daughter was allowed to walk away. There was a lot of 'adult play' whilst we were married I know see how wrong this was and I've never been near another relationship since. So as you can see this has knocked me to the ground, I've had to tell my children everything but my son still idolises his dad and has really struggled through lockdown, he's struggled at school and has been caught in a situation where others have made his live he'll. I find myself now clicking on the local police page to see if he's been charged. The x came round last week to drop some things of for my son as if nothing has happed but my gut says he's guilty knowing what he was like before we seperated, I hope he isn't for my children's sake. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore I'm just taking each day 1 day at a time lol dosnt help with lockdown