6 months today
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It's 6 months today and I thought it would get easier but today amidst being one of the first days since my life and the dynamics changed I have actually had time to sit down with no jobs or assignments nipping at feet and listening to some of my fave tunes I have actually thought and remember it's been 6 months! I am caught between my family/him and his! I feel like I am being torn apart! My head hates all this and as a csa survivor doesn't tolerate it but my heart and feel doesnt completely mirror that! Yes there is less days it hits me and knocks the wind our me but when it does I cannot breathe! Most days are good today not!
I'm sorry to hear you having a such a tough day. I know what you mean about it hitting you when there are no other distractions. It heartens me that you say lots of days are good too - I hope it's not too long before you get a good one x