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A never-ending loop of anxiety

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purplepen22

Member since
August 2021

20 posts

Posted Mon September 6, 2021 1:14amReport post

My anxiety has been nonstop since my partner told me in January about his struggles with porn and the rabbit hole he went down that brought him to illicit images. I never once in six years together questioned whether he was the one for me. But now I keep going through a mental roller coaster of feeling like I can move on from what happened, and that I understand how it happened...to struggling to let go of the black and white thinking I grew up with regarding this very stigmatized issue, and worrying about whether I'll ever truly feel "right" in my decision to stay with him. I love my partner so much, and it's so hard to separate myself from my anxiety. What thoughts are valid and worth listening to? What thoughts are pointless anxieties? I feel like I need a high power telling me that I'm not an idiot or weak for not leaving my partner before I can stop overthinking.

Dawn14

Member since
June 2021

472 posts

Posted Mon September 6, 2021 11:04pmReport post

Hi purplepen,



I don't think any one can tell u if ur right or wrong, but I no how u feel, I keep thinking am I doing the right thing, I'm staying with my husband but when anxiety kicks in and depression I think wat am I doing is it war I want will I ever feel normal again. It is so hard the decisions we have to make, but we have to do wat is right for us and no one else xx

Smile through tears

Member since
September 2021

2548 posts

Posted Tue September 7, 2021 4:58amReport post

I totally agree with Dawn / despite having to hide it / I continue to keep in touch with my family member in prison. He admitted his guilt and strives to achieve a better education and later go through programmes leading on to a new life and different path.

I will never forgive what he has done to us as a family, I really dont think he truly knows the impact but you cannot love someone and then just discard them over night.

i can sleep at night knowing I've made the right decision for me. I wish I didn't have to carry this burden but I just try to take each day at a time.

Edited Tue September 7, 2021 5:04am