Today feeling full of self pity
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So I woke up this morning crying and lay there thinking why am I crying the tears were flowing and my heart full of hurt and emptiness I know we are all going on this journey and these feelings are normal it's just one of them days I grieve for the victims and there families because of the actions of my son and what it has done to them I grieve for my son as he isn't living he is just existing he doesn't want to carry on and has all but given up his life before and what his life will be like he deserves to be punished for what he has done and I do not condone his actions at all but he is my son so I will be there on this journey with him I think back to how I was before this horrendous journey and now I just go through each day in such sadness at work I am there and I listen to other people's problems and think if only you knew what I have going on it's almost like I feel jealous:-( I have never been like that before I see the hurt and devastation this has done to my other young adults how on earth did we end up in this!
Sorry for the long post of my self pity it's just a harder day today xx
Sorry for the long post of my self pity it's just a harder day today xx
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I have days like that too, but just remember it's one day at a time. Are you receiving any therapy or help yourself?
Upset Mum, sending you a huge hug. Some days are worse than others, I felt like this earlier in the week but the last couple of days have been better. Overall I feel as if someone took a sledgehammer to my life and I know exactly what you mean about listening to other people and thinking 'if only you knew'.
You are so strong to be supporting your son as you are and I admire you for that; I am so angry with my son that although I'm supporting him in practical terms I'm not sure that I want a relationship with him in the long run.
Please do something nice for yourself today, get out in nature if you can. Keep checking in here for support and friendship, you know that we all understand completely what you're going through xx
You are so strong to be supporting your son as you are and I admire you for that; I am so angry with my son that although I'm supporting him in practical terms I'm not sure that I want a relationship with him in the long run.
Please do something nice for yourself today, get out in nature if you can. Keep checking in here for support and friendship, you know that we all understand completely what you're going through xx
Felt the same - really hard few days. Just sat in the car and wept earlier which I haven't don't for a while.
I had a couple of child-free hours so I ignored all my chores and snuggled in a duvet and watched Stacy Solomon organise other people's houses for a bit before setting to work on my own. Bizarrely therapeutic.
You will get through this xx hard days are so hard xx be kind to yourself however you can x
I had a couple of child-free hours so I ignored all my chores and snuggled in a duvet and watched Stacy Solomon organise other people's houses for a bit before setting to work on my own. Bizarrely therapeutic.
You will get through this xx hard days are so hard xx be kind to yourself however you can x
Hi,
Sorry ur feeling low today sending love and hugs to u xxxx
Sorry ur feeling low today sending love and hugs to u xxxx
Thank you all so much I took the dog out for a nice long walk xx
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Morning Smile
Thank you
It is heartbreaking my son is on remand and sentancing isn't until Feb I think once he is moved he will be able to focus on getting through this (I hope) but the pain is unbearable at times
I am fortunate that I have visits with him as hard as they are as i just want to bring him home :-(
Sending hugs to you xx
Thank you
It is heartbreaking my son is on remand and sentancing isn't until Feb I think once he is moved he will be able to focus on getting through this (I hope) but the pain is unbearable at times
I am fortunate that I have visits with him as hard as they are as i just want to bring him home :-(
Sending hugs to you xx
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Hi Smile
He has been RUI for 16 months and on remand for 11+ weeks
The visits are difficult but it's all we have for now and phone calls xx
You do what is right for you and your son and like you say things could change in the future
This journey is hell and we cant do anything about it except get through each day xx
He has been RUI for 16 months and on remand for 11+ weeks
The visits are difficult but it's all we have for now and phone calls xx
You do what is right for you and your son and like you say things could change in the future
This journey is hell and we cant do anything about it except get through each day xx