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Today nearly 4 years from the knock and 2 years since I last saw him when I discovered it was all true (he lied and denied it for 2 years) I was sorting out some stuff and came across some sexy underwear I'd worn with him.
It was a real shock because I thought I'd got rid of everything.
I feel dirty, sick and violated at the thought he ever touched me.
Just needed to get it off my chest so I can put it behind me.
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It was a real shock because I thought I'd got rid of everything.
I feel dirty, sick and violated at the thought he ever touched me.
Just needed to get it off my chest so I can put it behind me.
X
hi Beccy,
Please remember you are a victim and have done nothing wrong. Maybe seek some counselling for yourself to help you through? Give stop it now helpline a call for someone to talk to.
it scares me that you're still dealing with this 4 years later. Im only 2 months in and want it all to go away.
hugs x
Please remember you are a victim and have done nothing wrong. Maybe seek some counselling for yourself to help you through? Give stop it now helpline a call for someone to talk to.
it scares me that you're still dealing with this 4 years later. Im only 2 months in and want it all to go away.
hugs x
Jayjay,
I'm a lot better than I was. Just a bad day today.
The lies and deceit have a left a horrible legacy with my family. We've all had counselling which helps but I don't think it will ever go away. We'll just have to learn to live with it. It's my child that I worry for most and how this is going to affect future perceptions. It's already caused isolations because without telling friends what's wrong it's difficult to be around them.
Certain dates, places and events are difficult and it's not as if you can tell people why. Like I've said before it's like dealing with a bereavement but without anyone knowing.
I think it's the aloneness that's the hardest to take. That's why this forum is so valuable because although the few friends I have told try their best they don't understand.
Good Luck with your journey whatever route that make take. X
I'm a lot better than I was. Just a bad day today.
The lies and deceit have a left a horrible legacy with my family. We've all had counselling which helps but I don't think it will ever go away. We'll just have to learn to live with it. It's my child that I worry for most and how this is going to affect future perceptions. It's already caused isolations because without telling friends what's wrong it's difficult to be around them.
Certain dates, places and events are difficult and it's not as if you can tell people why. Like I've said before it's like dealing with a bereavement but without anyone knowing.
I think it's the aloneness that's the hardest to take. That's why this forum is so valuable because although the few friends I have told try their best they don't understand.
Good Luck with your journey whatever route that make take. X
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Dear Becky
I'm sorry you had this kick to the stomach. I'm no where near where you are with this process but I admire your obvious strength. I truly hope that I can be as brave as you and face this alone if and when that comes.
I hope the jolt/shock has eased and you are back on a more even keel.
I'm sorry you had this kick to the stomach. I'm no where near where you are with this process but I admire your obvious strength. I truly hope that I can be as brave as you and face this alone if and when that comes.
I hope the jolt/shock has eased and you are back on a more even keel.