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Chelsea 1

Member since
June 2021

891 posts

Posted Sat February 12, 2022 3:03pmReport post

Hiya.

Sorry for this and hope it doesn't upset anybody.

What I hate is the process and dunno if the police or cps can speed the processes up.

One minute you get the hell and life turned upside down with the knock.

Next you try and take it in, process everything maybe try and get a bit of your life together. Nobody watching you no restrictions. Nothing.

Next they call you some months letter. Saying can we have a another chat. Life turned upside down.

Then we have to wait again through CPS which could be another few months.

Then we get the courts and get the decision.

What gets me. One minute you know that you know dam well u have done wrong and trying to sort stuff. Maybe have a holiday etc. Go shopping. Walk the dog.

Next thing people are telling you what to do with your life, what u can look at and what holidays you can have.

Sorry for the rant. Xx

Judith

Member since
June 2021

195 posts

Posted Sat February 12, 2022 3:47pmReport post

No, you are right Chelsea. It's why the journey is such a rollercoaster of emotions. Even when things are relatively quiet there is an underlying anxiety about when the next upset will arrive. It makes planning anything in advance almost impossible.

Sadsister22

Member since
February 2022

95 posts

Posted Sat February 12, 2022 4:18pmReport post

Chelsea1

I totally agree. Magistrates court Monday (14th Feb) and I feel like everything is going to 'explode' Monday, like everyone will know whats happened, everyone will be talking about us as a family, all talking behind our backs. Its like im waiting for a button to be pressed and it will all be out in the open.

I know it won't be quiet like that (or I hope it won't be) but my anxiety can't let me rest. I have periods of ups and downs, sometimes my mind allows me to feel calm and that it will all be ok but then the anxiety kicks in and tells me that its never going to be ok. How can I make this stop. Should I let the feelings of calm in or am I kidding myself that it will be ok.

This is a emotional rollacoster no one asked for

I hope your all ok today

Lola53

Member since
May 2021

269 posts

Posted Sat February 12, 2022 6:11pmReport post

Totally agree - got the knock in May, RUI until second interview in December, back in limbo now waiting to know what the charges are. Truly hideous.

Chelsea 1

Member since
June 2021

891 posts

Posted Sun February 13, 2022 3:10pmReport post

Hiya Lola

Same times as my hubby. How long he been waiting for CPS.

What's his charges ?

Xx

Blackhound

Member since
October 2020

479 posts

Posted Mon February 14, 2022 12:36amReport post

an underlying anxiety about when the next upset will arrive.

Truer words have never been spoken !

Prinsess

Member since
February 2021

41 posts

Posted Mon February 14, 2022 5:25amReport post

Hi Chelsea we have waited 2 years for the cps do make a decision it horrible how there is no feelings for the family your hole life is on hold.



sending hugs

Lola53

Member since
May 2021

269 posts

Posted Mon February 14, 2022 8:51amReport post

That saying 'be kind, you never know what others are going through' must have been written for us! I'm definitely less judgemental of bigger things, but I find that I'm less tolerant of those who whinge about little things.....I get very (inwardly) irritated by those who are a bit tired, or a bit stressed, or a bit busy! But I've learned to just nod sympathetically and wish that I could return to a time where stress was just getting stuck in traffic!

SAL

Member since
December 2021

895 posts

Posted Mon February 14, 2022 9:11amReport post

I feel very similar Lola, lots more compassion and understanding for people going through tough things. Similar to you I find it difficult to engage in conversation or feel any sympathy for people in minor stressful situation - Sometimes want to scream and say I don't care, you've no idea how lucky you are to be living the life you are with the freedom and choices you have.

What now looks like a good life and outcome is dramatically different to what it was pre knock.

I have to tell myself, its not their fault they find themselves in a better position that I'm in and remind myself that things could actually be much worse.

Smile through tears

Member since
September 2021

2548 posts

Posted Mon February 14, 2022 9:38amReport post

Someone's life might be pretty good but as we've found out how that can change in the blink of an eye (or in our case the press of button). No one knows what awaits for them round the corner do they??????

i know what you mean your head screams - you ought to be in my shoes - when folk complain about trivia xxxx

Edited Mon February 14, 2022 10:06am

SAL

Member since
December 2021

895 posts

Posted Mon February 14, 2022 9:49amReport post

Agreed Smile.

In the summer I thought my life was perfect, I wanted to shout from the roof tops about how happy and perfect life was. I couldn't have been any happier.

I must have had a premonition because I didn't, I stayed humble, recognising how lucky I really really was and how far the fall would be if things changed. Oh and how that changed a few months later...