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Sometimes when I'm with my fiancé and I see a child or we are watching a show or movie with a kid in it, I have intrusive thoughts--despite what I have learned about porn addiction and the large grey area of why people view iioc. Thoughts like "is he looking at this child in a sexual way?" and "I hope he doesn't notice this kid"...as though he's a monster or something, even though I know it's not true. I know my fiancé was looking at this content because his reliance on porn whenever stressed or bored got out of hand. I know he isn't a P. I know it. So what is with these thoughts?! It makes me feel guilty and twisted. And anxious that five, ten, even twenty years down the road I'll still be having them.
Thank you! It really helps to know I'm not alone in the intrusive thoughts.
I go through this too. Especially when we are out in public. I feel guilty and a feeling of 'he should not be allowed to be here' when we go to zoos, museums, family friendly events etc.
My partner is an online offender. I cannot go into his head to confirm he is interested in children. He states it was fantasy online world and very unhealthy relationship with porn and chat rooms. He hasn't got a porn addiction diagnosis, i don't think that was what the issue was for him.
I like to think he doesn't see children in a sexual way, but like I said I can't see into his head. So for me as long as he doesn't act on it I can live with that.
I remember I was so uncomfortable when we went to a river and there were kids in swimming costumes. I found myself watching them and maybe I could have been accused of paying too much attention to them....I was also watching my partner to check he wasn't looking. I was so uncomfortable.
I spoke to him about it afterwards and he assured me he didn't view the kids in a sexual way but it did make him miss his kids because he can't be with them to play in a river.
I go around thinkin ghow horrible it is that parents are going around not knowing only feet away a child sex offender is nearby. It does make days out never as fun as they could be.
When I had to disclose to my mum and step dad they said they wouldn't join us out in public because they don't think he should be allowed near any children at all. They seem to have relaxed more that this hasn't been an issue- but the comment shows thier intial thoughts and was what I have felt before.
These intrusive thoughts I don't think will ever go away, but I can cope. For me it is a sign to me that I have not desensitized to the severity of what he has done. I'm doing what I can to safeguard children, even tho my partner has no signs he will contact offend. I feel like it is my duty as someone who has stayed with an offender to be on guard. This is my personal view and don't expect others to have this mindset. I have made peace with how I want to cope with all this. My partner is aware of how I feel.
My partner is an online offender. I cannot go into his head to confirm he is interested in children. He states it was fantasy online world and very unhealthy relationship with porn and chat rooms. He hasn't got a porn addiction diagnosis, i don't think that was what the issue was for him.
I like to think he doesn't see children in a sexual way, but like I said I can't see into his head. So for me as long as he doesn't act on it I can live with that.
I remember I was so uncomfortable when we went to a river and there were kids in swimming costumes. I found myself watching them and maybe I could have been accused of paying too much attention to them....I was also watching my partner to check he wasn't looking. I was so uncomfortable.
I spoke to him about it afterwards and he assured me he didn't view the kids in a sexual way but it did make him miss his kids because he can't be with them to play in a river.
I go around thinkin ghow horrible it is that parents are going around not knowing only feet away a child sex offender is nearby. It does make days out never as fun as they could be.
When I had to disclose to my mum and step dad they said they wouldn't join us out in public because they don't think he should be allowed near any children at all. They seem to have relaxed more that this hasn't been an issue- but the comment shows thier intial thoughts and was what I have felt before.
These intrusive thoughts I don't think will ever go away, but I can cope. For me it is a sign to me that I have not desensitized to the severity of what he has done. I'm doing what I can to safeguard children, even tho my partner has no signs he will contact offend. I feel like it is my duty as someone who has stayed with an offender to be on guard. This is my personal view and don't expect others to have this mindset. I have made peace with how I want to cope with all this. My partner is aware of how I feel.
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Hey purple,
I have awful thoughts too...never that I think he may be looking at a child in that way, more along the lines of if these people knew how would they react to him. It's such an awful situation to find yourself in. I guess the way society views this kind of offense doesn't help. It saddens me to think like this because I know he's a good man
Hope all you lovelies are ok xxx
I have awful thoughts too...never that I think he may be looking at a child in that way, more along the lines of if these people knew how would they react to him. It's such an awful situation to find yourself in. I guess the way society views this kind of offense doesn't help. It saddens me to think like this because I know he's a good man
Hope all you lovelies are ok xxx
That's what is so heartbreaking Hope, these men are not evil people.