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This word jolted me on a recent thread and alerted me to a part of our journey I haven't seen discussed on here, so interested to read your take.
As I've said we had absolutely NO idea what our son was up to and the evil stuff he was watching. NO sign, nothing. Worked hard, well liked by colleagues, had a loving family who'd do anything for him etc - so an horrendous shock and the whole family now ripped apart as a result.
I must admit sometimes I have felt a little 'scared' of him, it's just how can someone function normally, be loving and gentle and yet have such a horrible dark side - just find the deceit so scary.
Scared of his future and the 'situation', yes but to become scared of someone you love (your own son), the actual person? Is it just me / I'm curious to find out x
As I've said we had absolutely NO idea what our son was up to and the evil stuff he was watching. NO sign, nothing. Worked hard, well liked by colleagues, had a loving family who'd do anything for him etc - so an horrendous shock and the whole family now ripped apart as a result.
I must admit sometimes I have felt a little 'scared' of him, it's just how can someone function normally, be loving and gentle and yet have such a horrible dark side - just find the deceit so scary.
Scared of his future and the 'situation', yes but to become scared of someone you love (your own son), the actual person? Is it just me / I'm curious to find out x
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Hi Smile,
Yes, absolutely petrified that I have no idea what's going on in his head. We talk about how he's feeling quite a lot now but I've got no way of knowing if what he tells me is the truth. I hope that this passes but for now I'm allowing myself to feel it and think of reasons why I shouldn't be scared. If I were to mention it to him he'd be heartbroken like I think he's a monster or something. I'll say I'm scared of the situation and he says that he'd never hurt anyone but in all honesty I'd have rather taken my chances with him in a fist fight than deal with the emotional torture I've been through. Hope you're doing ok lovely xx
Yes, absolutely petrified that I have no idea what's going on in his head. We talk about how he's feeling quite a lot now but I've got no way of knowing if what he tells me is the truth. I hope that this passes but for now I'm allowing myself to feel it and think of reasons why I shouldn't be scared. If I were to mention it to him he'd be heartbroken like I think he's a monster or something. I'll say I'm scared of the situation and he says that he'd never hurt anyone but in all honesty I'd have rather taken my chances with him in a fist fight than deal with the emotional torture I've been through. Hope you're doing ok lovely xx