Hi
It has been 3 months almost since the knock I still can't walk past the window at the top of the stairs that I looked out from and saw the two police men standing there without shuddering.
I'm moving out in the next few days my new place is finally ready. I will offer support but I doubt he will tell me much except for the court date so that I can close down social media ect. It is still very painful and raw but I am doing my best to move on it is the only way for me. I visit here every day and have spoken with the helpline a few times. I cried yesterday because I wanted my old life back and normality but I'll never have that.
I'm having a down few days and I think it's because I am leaving in the next couple of days. I know I will be fine but it is all very sad.
Some days I feel so sorry for him then other days I despise him for what he has done.
Our lives will never be the same but I am going to make a good go of mine. I have no reason for my post except I have no one I can talk to about this. Just feeling low today but I am telling myself all will be ok.
It has been 3 months almost since the knock I still can't walk past the window at the top of the stairs that I looked out from and saw the two police men standing there without shuddering.
I'm moving out in the next few days my new place is finally ready. I will offer support but I doubt he will tell me much except for the court date so that I can close down social media ect. It is still very painful and raw but I am doing my best to move on it is the only way for me. I visit here every day and have spoken with the helpline a few times. I cried yesterday because I wanted my old life back and normality but I'll never have that.
I'm having a down few days and I think it's because I am leaving in the next couple of days. I know I will be fine but it is all very sad.
Some days I feel so sorry for him then other days I despise him for what he has done.
Our lives will never be the same but I am going to make a good go of mine. I have no reason for my post except I have no one I can talk to about this. Just feeling low today but I am telling myself all will be ok.
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Polly Pocket thank you.. I will still be visiting here definitely. Xx
Hi Barb, you're not alone in your feelings. I am 3 years down the line and I still have mixed feelings about him. I do feel sorry for him, but I cannot trust him and I know that our lives would be miserable if we stayed together. I am just being true to myself in how I deal with this. There is no right and wrong path. We were unable to be together from the moment of the knock, but believe me I have ranted at him via emails text phones! I think we're allowed to express our anger!
I wish you well for your future happiness. xxx
I wish you well for your future happiness. xxx
Thank you Tabs.. I know I would never be able to trust him again and agree with you we would be very miserable if I stayed. It is time for me to take care of me now. Xx