Halloween
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Only place I can come to complain about this.....
Just had a loud and extended knocking at my door which was totally unexpected and my heart started racing. Can't be a parcel, it's Sunday, it must be the Police...
It was kids dressed in their costumes and I looked at them like "????" And they said it's school tomorrow so we're coming tonight. Well nobody has ever knocked on in the time I've lived here as there's no kids round here and also, it's not Halloween!!! I know this is very much an us problem as nobody could ever predict that a resident has PTSD from the reasons we do but even so, I would never have knocked on strangers doors even before all this and if I had kids I would not be allowing my kids to trick or treat on any day other than Halloween. I get it's school tomorrow and they're only kids but I just wanted to be left alone even before all this.
I never fancied living in a remote place but I really think I need to as one of these days I might really lose the plot with someone and it's not fair.
Just had a loud and extended knocking at my door which was totally unexpected and my heart started racing. Can't be a parcel, it's Sunday, it must be the Police...
It was kids dressed in their costumes and I looked at them like "????" And they said it's school tomorrow so we're coming tonight. Well nobody has ever knocked on in the time I've lived here as there's no kids round here and also, it's not Halloween!!! I know this is very much an us problem as nobody could ever predict that a resident has PTSD from the reasons we do but even so, I would never have knocked on strangers doors even before all this and if I had kids I would not be allowing my kids to trick or treat on any day other than Halloween. I get it's school tomorrow and they're only kids but I just wanted to be left alone even before all this.
I never fancied living in a remote place but I really think I need to as one of these days I might really lose the plot with someone and it's not fair.
I also would like to live in a remote place.
I know how you feel. I have never been asked in all of my life to be a reference for someone on a DBS check. But a friend asked me about a month after the knock. I had to make some lame excuse, and could see they did not believe me when i gave a vague reason for not doing it.
You will get through this.
I know how you feel. I have never been asked in all of my life to be a reference for someone on a DBS check. But a friend asked me about a month after the knock. I had to make some lame excuse, and could see they did not believe me when i gave a vague reason for not doing it.
You will get through this.
Thanks Webb. That's another part of this I hate, the fact people around you have no idea what's going on. Since I posted this I've had 2 further scares (loud noises are also really triggering) my cat was running around and knocked something over and my partner dropped something upstairs which made a really loud bang and it's pushed me over the edge. I feel like I'm living on my nerves. The majority of the time I'm strong and deal with this so well but then a few loud noises and I'm reduced to a child. It's unbelievable how we have not done anything wrong yet suffer to this extent. Xx
Knock PTSD is real and it's seriously debilitating.
My lights are off and will be off tomorrow aswell.
Deep breaths.x
My lights are off and will be off tomorrow aswell.
Deep breaths.x
We have always done Halloween big here, like over the top big and everyone comes to see our house and have for the last 15 years and everyone knows it is (was) my favourite time of year. We got the knock end of last Oct so that's put a bit of a dampener of things but this year I'm too frightened to do anything in case we are later in the media (sentencing mid Dec) and people say we did it because xyz (insert any typical media comment...) but im so sad and then worried people will question why and then if its on the media but 2 and 2 together. Extra worry and stress not really needed at the minute, thinking of going out for tea to just get away from the neighbourhood for the evening. X
Hope you are doing ok. Anytime the door goes, a car stops outside the house or the post man puts Mail in the letterbox I always assume the worst. Sometimes if I'm driving out the street and I don't recognise a car I turn back to check it's not going to our house. Hope everyone is doing ok in not being able to celebrate Halloween the way they want. I will be pretending we aren't in tomorrow.
hope your okay :( I just spotted all the local kids doing the rounds . I CBA with the dog waking the baby ect but the little ones excited to hand out sweets . So I'm pouring a gin and sending her to the door if anyone comes . I was worried about this ( I'm sure visor wudnt want kids at the door ect ) but not alot I can do if they turn up we have been on a drive tonight for a few hours . Normally I make an effort have a party ect knock on the doors then wait at home with the sweets for ppl to knock but this year I feel so on edge . If it wasn't for the little one I would turn the lights off and get in the bath and park my car Infront off the door xxx
Even before all of this I hated the whole trick or treat thing! Covid definitely cut down on it the last couple of years.
If you google for it, Hampshire police have a poster for 'no Trick or treat here' that you can print out. I've put that up on our door the last few years and have one printed out ready for tomorrow.
If you google for it, Hampshire police have a poster for 'no Trick or treat here' that you can print out. I've put that up on our door the last few years and have one printed out ready for tomorrow.
It just goes to show you - the fear is never far away is it ?
im not too bad now, but I still think about those horrible/painful anxieties I felt in the past, I hope I never feel anything like that again - surely once in the life time of any human being is enough :(
im not too bad now, but I still think about those horrible/painful anxieties I felt in the past, I hope I never feel anything like that again - surely once in the life time of any human being is enough :(
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I also am really triggered by our front door buzzer. Any unexpected delivery etc sends my body into fight or flight. Mine stems from a real fear that the police will come back for a second knock as they didn't take all of my partners equipment the first time (I still find this odd) they left all of his work equipment and asked him if it was relevant to the case, including all of my equipment. They only took a few items which he gave them, but I keep thinking they'll come back if they can't find anything. It's a horrible space to be in :(
Thanks guys. I think we will probably struggle with this for a long time and hopefully one day we can go on with our lives without being on pins everytime we hear a noise xx