Struggling today
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I was quite late to finding this forum, but when I did discover it, I immediately found comfort in the fact that I didn't feel as alone anymore, and I just want to thank you all for that.
The knock happened about 2 years ago and I am now 6 months post-sentencing. And I haven't been on this forum in a while as a way to try and move on.
However, the last few weeks, I have really been struggling and feeling very alone. I wake up feeling anxious like I am holding a scream in inside me.
I think a number of things in my life have triggered this. But I just feel like I don't know what my true feelings are anymore.
I don't know what I want or how to fix things. I don't think I have ever felt this confused in my life, and I'm upset with myself because I thought things would have been clearer by now.
The knock happened about 2 years ago and I am now 6 months post-sentencing. And I haven't been on this forum in a while as a way to try and move on.
However, the last few weeks, I have really been struggling and feeling very alone. I wake up feeling anxious like I am holding a scream in inside me.
I think a number of things in my life have triggered this. But I just feel like I don't know what my true feelings are anymore.
I don't know what I want or how to fix things. I don't think I have ever felt this confused in my life, and I'm upset with myself because I thought things would have been clearer by now.
I am nearly a year post sentencing and I am still confused at what i want. I have good days and bad days. I do not have a solution I am sorry. Just wanted you to you you are not alone feeling lime this.
Virtual hug to you
Virtual hug to you
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Parkerpoo - overthinking hit me during the lockdown - all the 'what if's' constantly circling my mind - little did I know what storm was brewing at that time.
I now try my best not too go down that road but with so many future concerns, concerns about our family life and indeed my sons future, it rears ugly head and off I go locked in my 'over thinking' head.
not a lot to offer, but I know where you are coming from......
I now try my best not too go down that road but with so many future concerns, concerns about our family life and indeed my sons future, it rears ugly head and off I go locked in my 'over thinking' head.
not a lot to offer, but I know where you are coming from......
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Thank you everyone for your messages. I hate that we are all going through this xx
Overthinking is definitely also one of my pitfalls! And I've been doing a lot of this lately because of my family as well.
Daffodil, that means a lot. And I think you are right - I am putting far too much pressure on myself because I think that I should be feeling ok by now, just because the main date has past by.
But I need to try and look at it differently. Just because I am over the biggest hurdle, doesn't mean I can magically move on because I still need to try and process everything that just happened and figure out how I live life with all that history.
But I really do wish I could move on quicker and not be so confused. Oh for a magic wand hey!
Overthinking is definitely also one of my pitfalls! And I've been doing a lot of this lately because of my family as well.
Daffodil, that means a lot. And I think you are right - I am putting far too much pressure on myself because I think that I should be feeling ok by now, just because the main date has past by.
But I need to try and look at it differently. Just because I am over the biggest hurdle, doesn't mean I can magically move on because I still need to try and process everything that just happened and figure out how I live life with all that history.
But I really do wish I could move on quicker and not be so confused. Oh for a magic wand hey!