No Joy In Life
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I'm finding that I enjoy nothing in my life at the minute. Just have no joy not even in the small things.
Took my kids out to a Theme Park just to have a nice family day out together. I just couldn't enjoy it or let myself forget my current situation. It's like a cloud that follows me everywhere!
Tried having a few drinks with friends and all wanted to do was get back home and hide!
Even food doesn't taste nice anymore! Eating a tasty bar of chocolate might as well eat paper!
Took my kids out to a Theme Park just to have a nice family day out together. I just couldn't enjoy it or let myself forget my current situation. It's like a cloud that follows me everywhere!
Tried having a few drinks with friends and all wanted to do was get back home and hide!
Even food doesn't taste nice anymore! Eating a tasty bar of chocolate might as well eat paper!
I think what you're describing is a very common reaction to all of this trauma. Maybe someone will know a definitive psychological reason but to me it sounds either like understandable depression (it's one of the things a doctor asks about to diagnose depression) or maybe it's how your body/mind copes with having something so awful and upsetting going on that could easily make you spontaneously combust mentally so it dumbs everything down to prevent that - the flip side being that any strong but good emotions are dumbed down too. It's certainly how I'm feeling at the moment, it could have been me describing my state of mind :( :( :(. xxxx
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I think we go through a form of depression at the beginning and as 'blips' occur we sink back into it.
I was so reluctant to do anything, I just wanted to be left alone with my thoughts and keep away from hasstle or challenge. I was full of dread and fear to meet up with friends or go to certain trigger places. I thought my enjoyment in life had come to a halt.
But as life moves forward, I know my son is ok and coping with prison, and time does heal, yes with scars.... I force myself to meet friends that I know care and support me. It really does get better my lovelies, not perfect but we march on.
I was so reluctant to do anything, I just wanted to be left alone with my thoughts and keep away from hasstle or challenge. I was full of dread and fear to meet up with friends or go to certain trigger places. I thought my enjoyment in life had come to a halt.
But as life moves forward, I know my son is ok and coping with prison, and time does heal, yes with scars.... I force myself to meet friends that I know care and support me. It really does get better my lovelies, not perfect but we march on.