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SoTired

Member since
March 2021

387 posts

Posted Sat August 5, 2023 11:35pmReport post

Hi all,

I haven't really been posting or checking because, well to be honest I've just been trying to live! Dragonmama I owe you a reply!



But, I saw this earlier, and it just sort of felt to me like it sums us up. That fear of being normal again, the journey we have been on. We are so strong. It's never far from my mind. I'm scared to feel okay because you never know what extra bad news is going to hit. I have forgotten really what to live without that forced positivity and fear of another knock or blow! Isn't it such a shame?



We are incredible you know. What we do to get through should never be underestimated. So, whilst I am sharing something that hit the feels, I'm also celebrating you all x



https://youtu.be/DsyfqLi82B0

Smile through tears

Member since
September 2021

2548 posts

Posted Sun August 6, 2023 1:23amReport post

I just wish I could switch it completely off. I think about what's happened every single day.

I have moved forward definitely but my life isn't the same, the sadness remains. I just don't feel content anymore.

But you have to be brave and do your damn best to move forward but it's not easy is it?

Blue Sky

Member since
February 2023

205 posts

Posted Sun August 6, 2023 5:50amReport post

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Seaside

Member since
July 2022

560 posts

Posted Sun August 6, 2023 8:42amReport post

I wish I could switch off completely from the worry and constantly overthinking things but I have gained strength that I never thought I had and have begun to move forward taking each day as a step forward.

I do miss my old life at times but we have to create a new alternative.

That song really speaks to me as it was one of my lovely Mum's favourites too xx

Mandymoo

Member since
September 2021

295 posts

Posted Sun August 6, 2023 4:55pmReport post

So tired - exactly how I feel. It's always on my mind even though we're post sentencing. I feel like I'm constantly waiting for the next bad thing to happen. I can't let myself believe we are over the worst yet and I'm overthinking everything xxx

SoTired

Member since
March 2021

387 posts

Posted Mon August 7, 2023 1:03amReport post

This is going to sound like a random point but it's a bit like childbirth and your first baby. Anyone who has had kids can't tell you what the pain of that feels like until you've lived it. And it changes you and shocks you! You don't forget it. And whilst you get a brand new life as a result, your own experience of that you remember and it here leaves you. It changes you.



I guess that's why it's called the club!

This is so hard. Never really leaves me either. And the strength to carry on just has to happen. Nobody else can understand it unless they've lived it x