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JE

Member since
September 2020

42 posts

I'm sat here on my own just crying. Crying and crying. 3 years since the knock and nothing hurts any less. The reprocussions on me and my family have been astronomical. No one has been the same since. I feel sad every day. I've done the LF course, I've had weekly counselling for years but this pain just won't go. I'm not sure why I'm posting really, I just feel so alone.

Posted Mon September 4, 2023 9:39pmReport post

Dawn14

Member since
June 2021

473 posts

Hi JE,

Your not alone love and I'm so sorry you feel that way xx

Posted Mon September 4, 2023 9:57pmReport post

JE

Member since
September 2020

42 posts

It's just awful. I feel so broken. I just want to be happy again.

Posted Mon September 4, 2023 10:04pmReport post

S1lentScream

Member since
April 2023

26 posts

So very sorry you are feeling this way and wish I could give you advice. Please know you are not alone.

Sending hugs to you you. X

Posted Mon September 4, 2023 10:17pmReport post

Grapefruit

Member since
August 2023

44 posts

Oh JE, I hear you. So so sorry.

It really is traumatising. I'm sending you love and hugs. You are strong, you are determined. You are reaching out when you need to, keep fighting through JE, you are still standing, you will get there. X

Posted Mon September 4, 2023 10:59pmReport post

Smile through tears

Member since
September 2021

2726 posts

Your definitively not on your own my lovely, on this forum you are never far from a friend - even virtually to hold your hand and give you a hug.

We must say it daily but it is an horrendous journey and the impact of these crimes our loved ones have done have colossal impact on family structures.

I think acceptance of change is the key. None of us wanted this path but you are forced into rebuilding a new normal - albeit with scars.... my son in prison has been dreadful, but I force myself to carry on and I'm not getting any younger. You really do have to think about yourself too.

message me anytime and of course keep posting, friends are here for you.

Posted Tue September 5, 2023 4:21am
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Daffodil

Member since
March 2022

965 posts

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MywholeWorld

Member since
February 2023

37 posts

I can't say if it gets better or not, I still feel like I am still in the eye of the storm.

This is a safe space to be heard and to have your feelings acknowledged. Everyone cares although they are not the same path as you are, they are on a similar path, they understand and empathise. Sending you a virtual hug and hand hold xx you are stronger than you think

Posted Tue September 5, 2023 10:35amReport post

Upset mum

Member since
June 2020

2496 posts

Huge hugs sent and remember you are not alone you have us xxx

Posted Tue September 5, 2023 11:03amReport post

JulieM

Member since
July 2023

76 posts

I'm so sorry you're struggling after three years despite the counselling. Are you still 'connected ' with the person? Have you altered your life since the Knock such as move locations? Have you been concentrating on yourself, trying to find things that bring you joy and are truly your own and completely unconnected to the event and the individual?

We all suffer really fragile, bad days, sometimes for no specific reason. We have PTSD. I decided to pop in to the forum today because I'm having a bad one. That's what we do. Today I feel like I'm drowning. I'm going to head out into the garden and potter. It's one of my happy places where I can switch off and do something physical.

What things bring you joy and take you away from these troubles?

Please be kind to yourself.

Posted Tue September 5, 2023 11:05am
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rainyday52

Member since
April 2023

536 posts

If you have read down this far JE, please go back and read all the posts again - and again - until you feel a tiny glimmer of togetherness with us all. We really are a band of sisters, drawing strength from each other on bad days and sending strength on other days. Today has been an OKish day for me and so I'm sending you some of my strength and hope for better times ahead because those times WILL come. Oh and sending a big hug too x

Posted Tue September 5, 2023 3:10pmReport post

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