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Hello everyone,
Almost 11 weeks post knock here, still with fiancé and he has moved back in.
Took a few weeks, but things started to settle down, after an initial period of 'strangeness' (for want of a better word). As much as I love him, and am standing by him, I'd gotten used to my house being tidier and felt resentment at him putting me through it all and then coming home and making mess again. Petty in the scheme of things, I know.
Anyway, my (not his) grown up daughters were not over the moon about it at first, but have come round and are now ok with him.
The reason I'm struggling now is, first I got Covid over a week ago and am still feeling poorly, although back at work. Then my youngest daughter, my baby, my ray of sunshine, moved into halls at university over the weekend, a 4 hour drive away from home, and I'm distraught.
Of course, I'm unbelievably proud of her and excited for her, but my god, it was even harder than I thought and I can't stop crying. I miss her so much already, her calming, supportive presence.
My older daughter, who is 22 and still lives at home, is beautiful inside and out, but has had her own mental health issues (including an eating disorder, now recovered) due to undiagnosed autism.
I just feel so overwhelmed with everything. I'm not sure why I've posted, just venting I suppose.
I hope you are all coping with life better than I am at the moment x
Almost 11 weeks post knock here, still with fiancé and he has moved back in.
Took a few weeks, but things started to settle down, after an initial period of 'strangeness' (for want of a better word). As much as I love him, and am standing by him, I'd gotten used to my house being tidier and felt resentment at him putting me through it all and then coming home and making mess again. Petty in the scheme of things, I know.
Anyway, my (not his) grown up daughters were not over the moon about it at first, but have come round and are now ok with him.
The reason I'm struggling now is, first I got Covid over a week ago and am still feeling poorly, although back at work. Then my youngest daughter, my baby, my ray of sunshine, moved into halls at university over the weekend, a 4 hour drive away from home, and I'm distraught.
Of course, I'm unbelievably proud of her and excited for her, but my god, it was even harder than I thought and I can't stop crying. I miss her so much already, her calming, supportive presence.
My older daughter, who is 22 and still lives at home, is beautiful inside and out, but has had her own mental health issues (including an eating disorder, now recovered) due to undiagnosed autism.
I just feel so overwhelmed with everything. I'm not sure why I've posted, just venting I suppose.
I hope you are all coping with life better than I am at the moment x
Sorry to hear you are struggling, it's good that you have identified that you are not feeling your usual self. You have been poorly and now back at work. Please take sone time for you and look after yourself! Small things sometimes can be the best x
You're coping with an awful lot, K-lulu. Anyone of the things you mention would be exhausting in the best of times (covid, child leaving for uni). The rule is that you're only ever as happy as your unhappiest child, I think, so your elder daughter's struggles are huge for you too.
I have found that while I can understand what my husband has done on a logical level, I still don't understand on an emotional level. I am one year in now, OK most of the time but it doesn't take much to timrigger a wobble.
At 11 weeks I was still spending days crying.
be kind to yourself and please know that I am thinking of you.
x
I have found that while I can understand what my husband has done on a logical level, I still don't understand on an emotional level. I am one year in now, OK most of the time but it doesn't take much to timrigger a wobble.
At 11 weeks I was still spending days crying.
be kind to yourself and please know that I am thinking of you.
x
Thank you so much both of you, your words and support mean a lot xx
I am now off work again, as I still feel so poorly. I phoned the doctor this morning, and it seems the sinus infection I had at the end of July is still clinging on, so more antibiotics and rest.
I forgot to mention, a good friend of mine passed away in the summer too, he was only 46 and the funeral is on Monday.
I just feel like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster and I want to get off. Financial worries are an added pressure.
When will it ever end...?! Xx
I am now off work again, as I still feel so poorly. I phoned the doctor this morning, and it seems the sinus infection I had at the end of July is still clinging on, so more antibiotics and rest.
I forgot to mention, a good friend of mine passed away in the summer too, he was only 46 and the funeral is on Monday.
I just feel like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster and I want to get off. Financial worries are an added pressure.
When will it ever end...?! Xx