Dreading tomorrow
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Laying here in bed whilst OH is in separate room (been this way since the knock). I am dreading tomorrow, it's just me and him for most of the day but do have some friends in the evening. I normally love this time of year but just want to close my eye and wake up and it's 2024!
I have never felt so lonely as I do now, it's eating me up inside and I don't know how I will find the strength to get through this ordeal. I'm trying to stay positive for him and me as I know that if I break down I just won't recover for this.
Not sure why I decided to write this but these words keep going around in my head and just can't shut them down.
I keep looking back on my old life but need to look forward.
Time will help, just finding it hard to take one day at a time at the moment.
xxx
I have never felt so lonely as I do now, it's eating me up inside and I don't know how I will find the strength to get through this ordeal. I'm trying to stay positive for him and me as I know that if I break down I just won't recover for this.
Not sure why I decided to write this but these words keep going around in my head and just can't shut them down.
I keep looking back on my old life but need to look forward.
Time will help, just finding it hard to take one day at a time at the moment.
xxx
Lonely and Bewildered, I feel and share the pain in your words. It's our first Christmas since the knock. I feel so very very sad. It's easier when I'm feeling angry! You are not alone. All over the UK many, many woman like us are wondering how we will get through tomorrow. But we will. Somehow.
Numb and scared
Thank you for your kind words. Hoping today will past very quickly and the day will be over.
xxxx
Thank you for your kind words. Hoping today will past very quickly and the day will be over.
xxxx
I felt like this yesterday whereas usually I love Christmas Eve as much as 25th because of the excited anticipation. Now it's here I do feel a tiny bit better as we're on the downhill path to the end of the day. It's that 'finding strength when it's needed' thing in action. Hoping others have woken up and are getting on with their day feeling that they have just enough strength for this day as that's all that's needed really xxx
Lonely x
We can all totally understand the emotions you are feeling
Maybe just get out for a walk if you can let the fresh air blow on your face, just to clear your mind even if for a short time
Sending hugs and strength to you and we are here for you xx
We can all totally understand the emotions you are feeling
Maybe just get out for a walk if you can let the fresh air blow on your face, just to clear your mind even if for a short time
Sending hugs and strength to you and we are here for you xx
Lonely, I could've written exactly the same words. I hope you've managed to get through okay xx
Thank you all for your kind words.
Christmas Day was easier then I as expecting. Had a mini breakdown during breakfast but managed to get through the day which was the goal. Feel terribly guilty for speaking to friends and family and not actually telling them what's going on. I just want this over but only 3months into this journey, so still a long road ahead.
i hope everyone managed to find some peace over the festival time xxxx
Christmas Day was easier then I as expecting. Had a mini breakdown during breakfast but managed to get through the day which was the goal. Feel terribly guilty for speaking to friends and family and not actually telling them what's going on. I just want this over but only 3months into this journey, so still a long road ahead.
i hope everyone managed to find some peace over the festival time xxxx