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It's 3 weeks since my world upended. I know, from pouring over this forum, the basis of the process that I am going to have to go through. I'm beginning to understand that every time I unexpectedly start shaking, wake up with a 5 second delay to my new found situation, find myself frozen in thought, unable to move, or grieving for my life that was torn away in pieces, someone had gone before me, in exactly the same way. And it's the only shred of my new existence that I'm currently clinging on to. To know I'm not alone. Thank you.
Hey,
your totally not alone and I don't think many of us here have not suffered from PTSD after the knock, Take care and keep posting, there is a huge weath of knowledge here.
your totally not alone and I don't think many of us here have not suffered from PTSD after the knock, Take care and keep posting, there is a huge weath of knowledge here.
At the beginning of this journey I found the physical pain immense, I had stomach pain for months even now if I get stressed back it comes. My body was full of aches and pains.
Time will be kind to you and eventually the knots you feel will loosen and ease x
Time will be kind to you and eventually the knots you feel will loosen and ease x
I replay the knocking day over and over. Your not alone x
Bit of reassurance I use to be gripped with fear everytime I saw a police car, every knock on the door, scared venturing out my front door, scared of facing people, that's to name a few senarios.
honest, honest, honest - it does get easier with time x
honest, honest, honest - it does get easier with time x
Hi Seneca - I'm a mother of an offender and therefore i didn't experience 'the knock' but I had a 'caller ID witheld' phone call when my son was arrested to see if he could come and live with us and just typing this has made my stomach cramp a bit. If I get any call now saying that I spiral into a panic so I totally get how much worse it must be for those of us who actually experienced the knock personally.
But as others have said it does get better with time, albeit some relapses on the way when something new crops up to deal with. At first I scoured the forum right back to its beginnings looking for signs of hope (which gave me a surge of feeling a bit better, but then crashing down again when I read anything negative re outcomes etc). Now I don't feel the need to do that, probably because time has passed plus I've educated myself through doing the LFF inform course, which has helped me to feel less at the mercy of the situation and absolutely powerless.
And in the meantime there is the companionship of this forum to hold us up on bad days and give us the privilege of supporting others when they are down.
xxx
But as others have said it does get better with time, albeit some relapses on the way when something new crops up to deal with. At first I scoured the forum right back to its beginnings looking for signs of hope (which gave me a surge of feeling a bit better, but then crashing down again when I read anything negative re outcomes etc). Now I don't feel the need to do that, probably because time has passed plus I've educated myself through doing the LFF inform course, which has helped me to feel less at the mercy of the situation and absolutely powerless.
And in the meantime there is the companionship of this forum to hold us up on bad days and give us the privilege of supporting others when they are down.
xxx
Thank you all.