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I went back to work today after xmas. That was fine, except for the anger that I feel when i sit at my table at home and work while OH snores in the corner as they have a headache. Then my supervisor wants a meeting with me, wont tell me what it is about but cant fit me in till next friday, over a week away. Then went back to my slimming group. Such full of promise to myself that this is the year i will get slim. Then came home and ate mountains of chocolate. And then suddenly burst out crying when my furbaby gives me a hug. I dont get many hugs these days. My kids give me one if i request one, though my sons dont always do that! My OH and me dont do anything like that. He is ill all the time and i just get fed up looking after him. Not sure if he is actually working at getting better or just so depressed. And now its late and i need to go to sleep to get up early to go to the office tomorrow for another day in work.



I suddenly feel lonely and sad. I think the chocolate has had the opposite effect that I was hoping for. I am going out tomorrow night, but then nothing until work again on Monday. Thinking on doing overtime to just 'do' something. I know January is hard month but crikey i am only day 4. Is it too much to ask just to be happy? Sorry i am rambling, just needed to rant away. Thanks for listening.....

Thank you devastedwife. I also think i am finding it hard as we are due the random police check. It happens every six months or so, so if i hear a car door i presume its the police. If i get up late i dress immediately in case they call. Its sounds paranoid but it just all adds to everything. My OH does not seem to be bothered by these visits but he was on remand after arrest and was not around during two house searches in one day and visirs five days running by police.

We do have moments that seem normal, but unfortunately they are Becoming fewer in frquency. But it is so hard to forget what he has done.

Hoping i feel more upbeat tomorrow, late at night always seem worse

OH was arrested 18 months ago. But he was arrested, held on remand and sentenced in three weeks, he was sentenced before i had even had chance to see him. He came back home as we did not have small children and the police would let him live with his sister. So we can not afford two places on one salary so we have had no space to think. OH was sacked and now too ill to work. So its only my salary paying bills

Yes it did hit the media. He was sacked as he was arrested at work. So his employer knew straight away.