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Hi I'm struggling with all the events so it was May sometime all normal husband went out to work at 06:30 I woke my daughter up for her last exam my son was still asleep as he was off college and knock at the door at 07:20 I was putting bin out heard door so went through the house to answer front door there stood 2 plain clothed young men who had said they were police could they come in I didn't believe they were police so asked for I'd and they came in and asked me who was in the house so I told them I was asked to wake my son up as they believed someone in our home had been viewing indecent images I told them I don't think so so they read me a load of stuff can't even remember what as my head started going fuzzy and I started coughing a lot at this point I have 7 officers in my home with strong deodorant on and I'm anaphylactic with any perfumes I was mad they have come in made accusations and made me ill I grabbed my allergy mask took some medication and wore mask any way the take over my kitchen and the whole house it now comes to head this must be serious any way long story to the point my hubby had been arrested from work and spent weekend in cell at police station and was in court on the monday still never knew the full extent of what has happened as no one told me anything the police just left me a leaflet to stop it now scotland and told me they leave one of these at every house and that some of my husbands stuff had to be taken away for further examination anyway Monday came I had my World torn apart I am now only 3 months in and still with him (I know seems awful and stupid) but this is my hubby of nearly 20 great years he's been my soul mate, my best friend and my hubby, I seem to have 4 ok days where I'm just coping day to day then it all hits me (why me what have I ever done to deserve this betrayal) I get angry, sad I want to run away from it all why do I love someone who would do this to me to us even I hurt so bad it's so hard I called stop it now 2 weeks ago told someone would call me back on Tuesday but never so now I feel like no one cares is it because I'm still with him am I being judged sorry I'm at my end of it all feel like I'd rather not be here at all just struggling needing someone to chat with

Thanks Lee im aware others are going through the same it's just my head is everywhere what a lovely comment I have only my mum to chat to and don't have any friends due to my severe allergies xxx