feeling very low tonight
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evening folks , I'm.feeling very low this evening I just think one day I'm good and can block everything then know how each of my close family member is suffering in their own silence trying to move forward ...this has all really broken me , one minute I'm positive then yiu hear someone has said something about family yet again , small villages are so toxic people love To drag stuff on through arguments not even relevant to family member,
it's hard as family member doesn't live in the village anymore he's only a young guy and reputation ruined and we protect what people are saying etc about him ...but it hurts to know a once loved by many boy now has this for life because of something he opened ...my heart just breaks how life can flip in a switch...I just feel very lost at the minute and so so sad and i can't sleep so thought I'd post to get it out of my system even for 2 minutes..look after yourselves xx
it's hard as family member doesn't live in the village anymore he's only a young guy and reputation ruined and we protect what people are saying etc about him ...but it hurts to know a once loved by many boy now has this for life because of something he opened ...my heart just breaks how life can flip in a switch...I just feel very lost at the minute and so so sad and i can't sleep so thought I'd post to get it out of my system even for 2 minutes..look after yourselves xx
Aw sadso I am so sorry your feeling low tonight this journey really is the gift that keeps on giving, we also live in a small village we are only 9 weeks past sentencing and media coverage I felt I had a decent day today even got lots of washing done and dried and I didn't look to make sure nobody was about before I went out to garden, then now here I am struggling to sleep mind won't switch off at all.
Please.be kind to yourself wishing you a better day tomorrow xx
Please.be kind to yourself wishing you a better day tomorrow xx
I didn't want to read without responding. I'm sorry you are feeling so low this evening. Our emotions are so varied through every part of this journey but all have to be accepted. Each will pass and in time become less overwhelming. Try to remember that this doesn't define him. He will find his way. His life isn't over, more challenging yes but not over x
thank you ladies it means a lot , I know I suppose the emotions run high sometimes and one little thing can trigger such horrible sadness , like a hole in the pit of stomach that just gurgles away , my mind also won't switch off and I'm thinking about people that aren't even relevant to my life but I suppose that's the shame part having no control over what other people say or write and I suppose because prior to all of this people wouldn't have said a word to me but its like and advantage for them because of the circumstances and I am learning that I cannot control what other perceive to be the truth in all of this they have to be allowed their thoughts and feeling and I suppose that because I'm just wishing non of this had ever happened and still quite can't believe myself that it all has people can be cruel personally I couldn't make other people feel the way they've made me and my family feel and yes this is because of family members situation and I cannot also control that I just can't get over the level of sadness and hurt that I feel xxx
Bless you sadso - I really hope you have a better day today x
im over three years down the line and can honestly say theres not a day or time I forget about our situation and how much I miss my boy. I wish I could - but my thoughts are a heartbeat away.
i suppose ive learnt to live with it -not a nice way to live, certainly not....... but as I've said many a time I attempt to count my blessings in life. Not easy and your right, some days are better than others.
im over three years down the line and can honestly say theres not a day or time I forget about our situation and how much I miss my boy. I wish I could - but my thoughts are a heartbeat away.
i suppose ive learnt to live with it -not a nice way to live, certainly not....... but as I've said many a time I attempt to count my blessings in life. Not easy and your right, some days are better than others.
My daughter asked me why I have never went back on social media and I couldn't face seeing this dredged up all the time for my own mental health, there has been so much in our area lately if one goes in lots get dredged back up again its almost like it sparks a memory to people, my work was aided a lot by social media and this is its only downfall I am struggling with but I am coping and finding ways around no social media.
Hoping today is a better day as always another bad night of sleep for me I don't know what to do about this sleep thing at all
Hoping today is a better day as always another bad night of sleep for me I don't know what to do about this sleep thing at all
I always think of social media as a gap people could possibly squeeze through and have a go at you - which is the last thing I've needed.
I immediately deleted it all (right at the beginning), and although I've lost contact with some people - I've had no regrets and don't miss it. Got more control of my contacts these days and no one can get to me.
I immediately deleted it all (right at the beginning), and although I've lost contact with some people - I've had no regrets and don't miss it. Got more control of my contacts these days and no one can get to me.
yeah I don't have social media I don't know how I would have been if I still had its toxic anyway most people that wrote stuff on there and shared stuff and had great opinions on slating my family can't even look at me when I see them face to face says a lot doesn't it about them !!! I was awake til 3am ...hopefully I have a better day today , today I wake up chos8jg to make changes in my personal life that may help me have a clearer view on life and hopefully 1 day to becoming a stronger person thank you for all your kind words xxx