Bittersweet day
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I've recently just celebrated my child's 1st birthday and my emotions just feel all over the place, we had a lovely day, surrounded by friends and family, all except the one person that should have been there. My OH helped with everything else before hand, but due to having to tell parents of the investigation, he had to leave and missed out on our only child's birthday.
I know the simplist thing would be to tell family, but I'm just so frightened, I'm already looking at moving either to a different county or country when/if it hits the fan, and I doubt it if people did know that they'd still come to see us. I think it's really hit my OH too, he knows how much he's missing out on but at the same time he's responsible for what he's done.
it just feels like everythings hit us all at once, our child turning a year old, finally getting a court date, my job down the toilet (not related to this at all), its been a really overwhelming time, I'm trying to see the possitives of the time we had on our child's birthday, but I don't know why but having my OH go back to our family home alone on that day has hit me harder than this whole year of living apart, I just want us to be a normal family. Just have to wait and see what court brings x
I know the simplist thing would be to tell family, but I'm just so frightened, I'm already looking at moving either to a different county or country when/if it hits the fan, and I doubt it if people did know that they'd still come to see us. I think it's really hit my OH too, he knows how much he's missing out on but at the same time he's responsible for what he's done.
it just feels like everythings hit us all at once, our child turning a year old, finally getting a court date, my job down the toilet (not related to this at all), its been a really overwhelming time, I'm trying to see the possitives of the time we had on our child's birthday, but I don't know why but having my OH go back to our family home alone on that day has hit me harder than this whole year of living apart, I just want us to be a normal family. Just have to wait and see what court brings x
I can relate to how you're feeling. Sometimes the good times/important events feel almost empty because my partner misses them or we have to part ways at the end of them.
It's a very lonely feeling. At times I feel angry with him that this is the situation that he put us in but mostly I feel sad for all of us. Sending you love and strength xxx
It's a very lonely feeling. At times I feel angry with him that this is the situation that he put us in but mostly I feel sad for all of us. Sending you love and strength xxx