Who am I?
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So when I had the call from the police we hadn't been together for 8 yrs.
We have a son together and have always had an amicable relationship.
We had a 20 yr relationship from when I was 16.
I can't help but now question the whole of the time we spent together.
As well as the arrest and allegations there have been other things that have come out about the person he really was.
All of the memories that were happy I am questioning, all of the time we spent as a family is jaded and for once all of the trust issues I had when we were together were right.
Most importantly was I actually a victim myself?
A whole 20 years of my life is now jaded by someone that I don't know now.
I've had to buy all new Christmas decorations because of the memories linked to them.
I want to move house because of the memories this house holds.
I am really struggling with who I actually am now.
How do people move forward from such a shock because of someone we thought we knew?
We have a son together and have always had an amicable relationship.
We had a 20 yr relationship from when I was 16.
I can't help but now question the whole of the time we spent together.
As well as the arrest and allegations there have been other things that have come out about the person he really was.
All of the memories that were happy I am questioning, all of the time we spent as a family is jaded and for once all of the trust issues I had when we were together were right.
Most importantly was I actually a victim myself?
A whole 20 years of my life is now jaded by someone that I don't know now.
I've had to buy all new Christmas decorations because of the memories linked to them.
I want to move house because of the memories this house holds.
I am really struggling with who I actually am now.
How do people move forward from such a shock because of someone we thought we knew?
It's so difficult to move forward.
I look back at my long marriage and wonder how much was based on lies.
It was mentioned on here and has really stuck with me - why weren't we enough?
I recently met someone - first since the breakdown of my marriage. He seemed such a nice bloke and I could see a future. But it all ended before it really got started. Took me a great deal of courage to admit my feelings and to contemplate a relationship including the physical side. But it ended before it really got started.
Once again I'm thinking yet again I wasn't enough.
So hard.
I look back at my long marriage and wonder how much was based on lies.
It was mentioned on here and has really stuck with me - why weren't we enough?
I recently met someone - first since the breakdown of my marriage. He seemed such a nice bloke and I could see a future. But it all ended before it really got started. Took me a great deal of courage to admit my feelings and to contemplate a relationship including the physical side. But it ended before it really got started.
Once again I'm thinking yet again I wasn't enough.
So hard.