Trying to have a 'normal' christmas
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The knock was 4 months ago for my 16yr old. Those who may have read my posts will have seen we have no knowledge exactly what he's accused of.
Today I tried to start the run up to Xmas with a family day out but it was a disaster. Too crowded for my son and a combination of other things.
We tried to tell him he might be worth talking about how he's feeling but that caused bigger meltdown. He won't talk about anything relating to the knock. Today he got upset saying he's no idea what it relates to and how he told them everything he knew. I believe him but it's taking it's toll on family life and it's frustrating how timescales for devices being checked are not consistsnt across different areas.
We ended the evening putting the tree up. I love Christmas normally but this year I know it won't be the same with this dark cloud hanging over us. Things are also hard with my parents and they have no idea about what's happening so I have to act normal despite falling apart inside.
All I want is the nightmare to be over.
Today I tried to start the run up to Xmas with a family day out but it was a disaster. Too crowded for my son and a combination of other things.
We tried to tell him he might be worth talking about how he's feeling but that caused bigger meltdown. He won't talk about anything relating to the knock. Today he got upset saying he's no idea what it relates to and how he told them everything he knew. I believe him but it's taking it's toll on family life and it's frustrating how timescales for devices being checked are not consistsnt across different areas.
We ended the evening putting the tree up. I love Christmas normally but this year I know it won't be the same with this dark cloud hanging over us. Things are also hard with my parents and they have no idea about what's happening so I have to act normal despite falling apart inside.
All I want is the nightmare to be over.
Bless you, I can understand how foul you all must feel, i vividly remember those days and how i was affected just not hearing my son laugh anymore, it was so sad and thought as a family we were going to be ruined forever.
Apart from a listening ear, I cannot offer much practical advice. As Christmas thunders towards us and we are bombarded with the expectation of closeness, happiness and peace everywhere we look. I think at times it's like being trapped in a goldfish bowl. But as we know on the forum it is not so for us and many people dread this time year.
We are together as a group and here for each other, always. A hug sent x
Apart from a listening ear, I cannot offer much practical advice. As Christmas thunders towards us and we are bombarded with the expectation of closeness, happiness and peace everywhere we look. I think at times it's like being trapped in a goldfish bowl. But as we know on the forum it is not so for us and many people dread this time year.
We are together as a group and here for each other, always. A hug sent x
Christmas is so hard whatever stage we are at.
I'm 2 1/2 years post knock. On my own. I just want it over. Not sure how I'm going to fill 12 days off work. Making me feel so low - life has been starting to improve but this has set me back again.
We all just have to find a new normal
I'm 2 1/2 years post knock. On my own. I just want it over. Not sure how I'm going to fill 12 days off work. Making me feel so low - life has been starting to improve but this has set me back again.
We all just have to find a new normal
I'm so sorry that this is happening to you, your son and family. The knock also concerned our son, although he's 22 and was made to leave family home.
Like you we are a festive family, but yesterday ruined me, we set up the tree with music, hot chocolates and a tub of choccies, all whilst trying to smile. My son was in low mood yesterday as he was very aware of the date and that everything we would of been doing at home and he was missing out on!
I cannot even begin to imagine what Xmas day is going to look like it is giving me so much anxiety.
Sending you lots of love x x
Like you we are a festive family, but yesterday ruined me, we set up the tree with music, hot chocolates and a tub of choccies, all whilst trying to smile. My son was in low mood yesterday as he was very aware of the date and that everything we would of been doing at home and he was missing out on!
I cannot even begin to imagine what Xmas day is going to look like it is giving me so much anxiety.
Sending you lots of love x x