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This is just a bit of a getting it out my system to be honest, but today I've just never felt so lonely, I've got the flu, I've got millions of assignments for university, I'm now a single parent to 4 children and since the knock my marriage of over 10 years has come to an end. I'm so angry most of the time but today I'm just sad, like deep deep sadness and I feel so lonely I miss having someone to talk to and lean on and look forward to things with. I feel like my life went from being perfect, I was married to a boy I met in secondary school and for me it was like real deep love I thought we would be together our whole lives.

Then the knock came and I felt betrayed in the worst way, for me this is unforgivable, and it totally changes who he was in my life, I find it deeply unnatractive it makes me feel sick. but I just wish it would all disappear and he hadn't done it and I could have my life back, I'm so heartbroken and I know he's done this too me he's ruined everything just to feed what he was doing. Anyway I know there's nothing anyone can say that will bring back my old life but I'm just broken today .... :(

Thankyou for your reply H, i just feel like I'm in a black hole at the moment your words of being trapped really sum up where I feel I am. Whilst I haven't committed the crime I feel like I'm feeling the pain of as many or more consequences than he is and it's so hard to cope with.



I'm constantly told 'its not your fault' but it feels a real injustice that the women in this process are punished over and over again, we become single parents, often our careers suffer, we become single income families, we may become homeless, our children become fatherless, we have no support or childcare family and friends often turn their backs (not in my case but I've seen it, we live in fear of the media and the pain that will cause, we really are victims, and our lives are devastated ????