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I feel so trapped I hate my job right now but as the main/only earner I can't change it's super stressful.
My house if for sale my beautiful dream home.
I have no one to talk to because the policeman said someone will put my windows through.
I put a smile on each day at work and then cry on the way home.
It's so unfair and all I hear is take a bath, read a book, do some exercise.
Yes if I was just depressed those thing would help. But nothing is going to change the fact that my whole world has been ripped apart.
I probably won't be able to be the grandma I wanted to be or to travel when I retire. Those are all I really want those things. If I can't have them what is the point in fighting through each day. Surviving and existing not living. A bath is not going to help and neither is therapy as it is unchangeable simple as that.
I feel unheard and patronised when people say those things. Im not stupid nothing will make those things better.
My house if for sale my beautiful dream home.
I have no one to talk to because the policeman said someone will put my windows through.
I put a smile on each day at work and then cry on the way home.
It's so unfair and all I hear is take a bath, read a book, do some exercise.
Yes if I was just depressed those thing would help. But nothing is going to change the fact that my whole world has been ripped apart.
I probably won't be able to be the grandma I wanted to be or to travel when I retire. Those are all I really want those things. If I can't have them what is the point in fighting through each day. Surviving and existing not living. A bath is not going to help and neither is therapy as it is unchangeable simple as that.
I feel unheard and patronised when people say those things. Im not stupid nothing will make those things better.
I'm so sorry you're feeling like that, it's an awful place to be knowing that the dreams you had will never be realised and I want to reassure you that I hear you
If you have someone you trust and want to talk to then go ahead. Don't let the police frighten you. My son's case is out in the open and we've had no repercussions and it's very likely you won't either.
I felt sad and hopeless for a long time and like you nothing at the time really helped. I can reassure you by saying that time really does help but I know that when you're feeling as you are it's difficult to believe that.
I'm here for you so keep reaching out.
If you have someone you trust and want to talk to then go ahead. Don't let the police frighten you. My son's case is out in the open and we've had no repercussions and it's very likely you won't either.
I felt sad and hopeless for a long time and like you nothing at the time really helped. I can reassure you by saying that time really does help but I know that when you're feeling as you are it's difficult to believe that.
I'm here for you so keep reaching out.
Do you have any close friends you can talk to? I only told people very close to me but they were essential for my survival to be honest. They came round when I was really low and lifted me back on track.
If you don't ,I rang the Samaritans a few times, I told them exactly what happened and they didn't judge me and we talked it all through and I cried alot, but felt lighter after.
I still have really bad days and it's a bit of a rollercoaster but I'm quite a bit in now and sometimes I have ok days too, although I'm exhausted constantly sometimes I dare to hope that the future won't always be so bleak. I left and am a single parent to my children now the next hurdle is obviously court and the media fall out I'm hoping that won't break me and the children but I know I have friends who will stand by me. I hope you have someone you might be able to confide in.
If you don't ,I rang the Samaritans a few times, I told them exactly what happened and they didn't judge me and we talked it all through and I cried alot, but felt lighter after.
I still have really bad days and it's a bit of a rollercoaster but I'm quite a bit in now and sometimes I have ok days too, although I'm exhausted constantly sometimes I dare to hope that the future won't always be so bleak. I left and am a single parent to my children now the next hurdle is obviously court and the media fall out I'm hoping that won't break me and the children but I know I have friends who will stand by me. I hope you have someone you might be able to confide in.
when your world is shattered no words are going to be comforting , because yes our lives quite frankly are torn apart will it ever be the same again? who knows , I confided in my truest best friends who supported not just me but my immediate family who it affected and my young family member (the accused) it didn't take me long because quite frankly I needed them and pretty much blurted it out the same day i found out because for me I couldn't see a way out it was instant fear , fear in that we all know the stigma this offences is perceived to the public and communities we live in , I was the same before it happened in my family, but 2 years later and after the backlash (not everyone gets that ) my life is good I still have all my closest friends , yes people have gone but no one of any relevance ...its testing times , I did get counselling it didn't take the pain away by any means but from it I got more understanding of these crimes , I realised I can't just stop loving someone I've loved since the day they were born and for me that was harder to fight than the opinions of people that mean nothing to me , I don't have any advice for u on how to deal with this because we're all different but the one thing we do all share and know is the emotions and feelings that this causes us and no one could ever imagine it unless it happens to them ..so all I can offer is a listening ear and pray that you can find some peace within yourself and do what's right for yourself , your dreams can still be dreams with maybe a few missing peaces , but your life is valued and you also matter in all of this 1st and fore most xx