Overwhelming grief
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Had such a tough few days. I am missing my old life so much. Every year this week of february we would go away on a family trip for 2 nights. Nothing fancy but it was ours. Our kids loved it, it was one of my favorite trips to go on. The grief is just overwhelming me. I am SO angry with my husband i want to scream at him but I also love him so painfully much. Hes just as much of a mess as I am. Genuine remorse and guilt and shame. He is living with his parents but comes to see our children most nights after work. He left tonight crying. I am just broken. I cant ever imagine being with him again as how could I EVER trust him or be intimate with him again....but I also cant imagine my life without him in it. My brain and my heart are just broken and I am so confused and sad.
i dont know where else to go besides here to write it down.
hoping tomorrow will be a better day
i dont know where else to go besides here to write it down.
hoping tomorrow will be a better day
Just want to let you know, we are all here for you. We understand what you're going through and the pain you are suffering as you cope with all these different emotions.
Each day definitely holds its challenges, but I promise you – you will work out a new path and life will settle and will get better my lovely x
Each day definitely holds its challenges, but I promise you – you will work out a new path and life will settle and will get better my lovely x
Where there is life there is hope please try to not think of whole picture take a day at a time, sending love and strength x
Letitgo
i now exactly how you feel; sometime a I think I'm doing great and managing. Then other days I'm completely miserable and miss my old life. I live in hope that one day it will be better. It's just hard isn't it.
i now exactly how you feel; sometime a I think I'm doing great and managing. Then other days I'm completely miserable and miss my old life. I live in hope that one day it will be better. It's just hard isn't it.
I'm right there with you today. We always went to the Peak District at February half term and instead I'm taking the children on a mini break somewhere else, but the pain in my heart is overwhelming. I feel so heartbroken. I lurch from fury to resolute strength to wishing I could sweep it under the rug and go back to our old life. But that's gone and will never come back. There's no way we can ever live together again but until the court case is over (who knows when) and dust has settled I'll be lurching back and forth.
sending you a huge hug xx
sending you a huge hug xx
Hi, I divorced my husband quite early on because I knew I couldn't share a bed with him and the trust was gone. He reoffended so I did the right thing. However, we are very very close. We finish each others sentences. He accompanies me to all my appointments etc. He's my carer. I think he'll be going to prison again in a few weeks time. I'm so angry with him and feel so very let down. My life has changed beyond all recognition because of what he's done. But I'm really going to miss him, so much so it makes me want to howl at the moon. X
The grief for your old life is horrible isn't it? I find myself also sad that our old life wasn't as simple as I thought it was either.
The whole thing has left me in a sort of existential crisis.
Traditions, holidays, anniversaries, birthdays - all of it is tainted and different. Its all just so sad.
I hope you can enjoy some of half term anyway, despite it all.
The whole thing has left me in a sort of existential crisis.
Traditions, holidays, anniversaries, birthdays - all of it is tainted and different. Its all just so sad.
I hope you can enjoy some of half term anyway, despite it all.