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Does anyone else just feel ill and exhausted all the time?
I feel like I have nothing left to bring. Like I don't even want to cope. I just want it to end. I wake up feeling sick every single day gutted that a new day has started.
It doesn't get easier it just gets harder.
I have no one to talk to I feel like a worthless piece of rubbish.
I feel like I have nothing left to bring. Like I don't even want to cope. I just want it to end. I wake up feeling sick every single day gutted that a new day has started.
It doesn't get easier it just gets harder.
I have no one to talk to I feel like a worthless piece of rubbish.
I couldn't read and run! I'm so sorry that you feel this way. I'm only 3 weeks in and feel like this most days.
Wish I had more advice but feel free to DM me if you need to rant or anything x
Wish I had more advice but feel free to DM me if you need to rant or anything x
Yes!! Often. I think what's the fkn point it's all fkd, all of it.
I saw something about the power of dance recently and if I'm honest I thought, I don't think I'll ever dance again.
Dance?? DANCE?? How? How do you dance when you're living a nightmare?? When the pain never ends..even when you sleep.
But I know plenty of women here have found hope or less despair or whatever you might call it. I cling on for dear life that I might find hope at some point.
I absolutely have no hope right now. I often think it would be such a relief to just not to wake up.
Nothing nice to add. Just maybe join me in hoping for hope at some point? Even that sounds utterly s*** doesn't it? Hoping for hope. All I've got right now though...
I saw something about the power of dance recently and if I'm honest I thought, I don't think I'll ever dance again.
Dance?? DANCE?? How? How do you dance when you're living a nightmare?? When the pain never ends..even when you sleep.
But I know plenty of women here have found hope or less despair or whatever you might call it. I cling on for dear life that I might find hope at some point.
I absolutely have no hope right now. I often think it would be such a relief to just not to wake up.
Nothing nice to add. Just maybe join me in hoping for hope at some point? Even that sounds utterly s*** doesn't it? Hoping for hope. All I've got right now though...
Exactly that what is the point whole adult life down the drain all utterly f****.
I don't even like myself at this point so I really don't expect anyone else to.
I don't even like myself at this point so I really don't expect anyone else to.
Oh Life, I feel you. I'm sorry, I can't recall your story. But I'm a parent in this situation so I hate myself and blame myself frequently. I mean, your job as a parent is to raise functioning healthy adults isn't it? Well I f**** that right up so I probably deserve to feel how I do. I must have done a s*** job so this is my reward. I don't expect anyone not to point fingers etc. that's partly why I struggle to have hope. I'm not sure I deserve it
I do not feel this way about anyone else btw. I have complete compassion for parents, partners, children, grandparents. Everyone. But just not me.
I do not feel this way about anyone else btw. I have complete compassion for parents, partners, children, grandparents. Everyone. But just not me.
Life, I like you. I think you'd be the sort of person I could get on with and have a laugh with (eventually, you know, when we get the ability to laugh back... ). I appreciate your honesty. You are not alone in this shit storm.
I can so relate :( I feel for you and I wish I could give you a huge hug x
I travelled from a Nordic country to the UK to see my BF when I had the knock on the hotel room door (my BF was at his job, where he was arrested). My life was completely shattered! This was on the 31st of January. On the 3rd of February (I was back home in my country by then) the police officer in my BF´s case sent me an email saying they tried to call but aren´t allowed to call non-UK numbers (I have a Nordic country number) and said my BF was being remanded in custody until the 14th of March. I asked where he was taken but she couldn´t tell me. Since then I´ve had silence :(
It´s like I woke up that morning in the UK and my BF had just left without saying a word. The worst breakup in history only it´s not a breakup. I´m totally devastated. I have´t slept 1 night without an anxiety pill. I´m on autopilot, I´ve lost the joy of life.
I just want to hear from him, I need answers. I´m sure I will sooner or later but these 3 weeks + 2 days has been the worst in my life :(
Send me a private message if you want.
xx
I travelled from a Nordic country to the UK to see my BF when I had the knock on the hotel room door (my BF was at his job, where he was arrested). My life was completely shattered! This was on the 31st of January. On the 3rd of February (I was back home in my country by then) the police officer in my BF´s case sent me an email saying they tried to call but aren´t allowed to call non-UK numbers (I have a Nordic country number) and said my BF was being remanded in custody until the 14th of March. I asked where he was taken but she couldn´t tell me. Since then I´ve had silence :(
It´s like I woke up that morning in the UK and my BF had just left without saying a word. The worst breakup in history only it´s not a breakup. I´m totally devastated. I have´t slept 1 night without an anxiety pill. I´m on autopilot, I´ve lost the joy of life.
I just want to hear from him, I need answers. I´m sure I will sooner or later but these 3 weeks + 2 days has been the worst in my life :(
Send me a private message if you want.
xx
I hate bringing negativity to the forum, but I'm in a negative space and I feel how you feel right now. I have written positive posts in the past, I've even written posts of hope for the future and I wasn't lying, I felt like that at that time.
I get where you are, I understand how you're feeling. I have hundreds of thoughts in my head at the moment and I just can't get peace from it. And I can't say that I'm in the early stages, I'm years down the line and way passed sentencing. It's still hard.
I get where you are, I understand how you're feeling. I have hundreds of thoughts in my head at the moment and I just can't get peace from it. And I can't say that I'm in the early stages, I'm years down the line and way passed sentencing. It's still hard.
My heart goes out to you all. I too have felt despair on this dreadful journey. Your mind can spiral off in all sorts of directions,yet you still get up each day & start again. Sometimes that is all you can do. Deal with the immediate day. You cannot change the past,or what is to come.
Try to remember the activity you enjoyed,mine is swimming. Find your own quiet headspace.
We have all blamed ourselves,but only the person has done wrong.
Keep checking in here among supportive friends.
Sending you strength & resilience x
Try to remember the activity you enjoyed,mine is swimming. Find your own quiet headspace.
We have all blamed ourselves,but only the person has done wrong.
Keep checking in here among supportive friends.
Sending you strength & resilience x
I wish more than anything we could try as a collective to do something positive and fight for the sense of injustice and misunderstanding of this deeply emotive and harrowing subject. On Good Morning Britain they had a feature about the stigma still associated with eating disorders, and I thought, jeez we've got no hope!! X
Yes. I developed Polymyalgia Rheumatica, a severe inflammatory disease that usually affects people in their 70's/80's. I was 48 when it started. I was pretty much bedridden for 18 months. I now have carers to help me shower etc which I find really difficult. They've met my ex quite a few times. I worry what will happen if/when they find out what he is next week after sentencing. Chronic stress is terrible mentally and physically. X