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It's been a little over a year since "the knock," and now the sentencing is settled with a suspended sentence. I remember my first visit to this forum, a few days after my persons arrest, my body still in total shock and feelings of just complete hopelessness. I came across posts about how things do get easier and wishing it was me writing about how there is a "light at the other end of the tunnel", wondering if i would ever even get there. I felt as though my world was over.
I just wanted share today because I'm now the one that can say it really is going to be OK. I still have ups and downs. Unexpected knocks at the door can still trigger me, and even without media attention, I occasionally find myself Googling his name just to see if anything comes up. However, reflecting on my journey from a year ago to now, I can finally say that I can breathe again.
My person was a family member who was living with me at the time and i dont have much contact with anymore i'm just taking each day as it comes.
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I just wanted share today because I'm now the one that can say it really is going to be OK. I still have ups and downs. Unexpected knocks at the door can still trigger me, and even without media attention, I occasionally find myself Googling his name just to see if anything comes up. However, reflecting on my journey from a year ago to now, I can finally say that I can breathe again.
My person was a family member who was living with me at the time and i dont have much contact with anymore i'm just taking each day as it comes.
Xx
Needed this thanks! I'm going to do the same when we are at this point, I'm so glad your through the worst and can start to re build xx
Thank you so much for sharing. You've given me a idea to post a message of hope on the anniversary of my "knock" every year. I remember how grateful I was for these messages at the beginning and even today a year and a half later. Life does go on.
My person is my husband though the father of my children my 30 years partner how do you ever get over that.
I know it sounds awful but if I'd known for their sake I wouldn't have had them. My poor babies.
I know it sounds awful but if I'd known for their sake I wouldn't have had them. My poor babies.
Lifeisover - mine was my husband of over 30 years too. I'm almost 3 years post knock.
I could never have seen myself where I am today 3 years ago. My life had been ripped apart and I was suicidal. I didn't know how my kids would cope even though they were young adults. I was lying to everyone and my heart was broken.
Today I have a wonderful new partner who tells me he loves me. But I've not been able to say it back. I'm so frightened of being hurt again or trusting someone so completely.
Yes I am in a much better place - physically and mentally. But there are still scars and that makes me angry - that I'm trying to make a new life for myself and still it hangs over me.
I think we are all stronger than we ever thought we would have to be - and we all deserve to be happy again.
I could never have seen myself where I am today 3 years ago. My life had been ripped apart and I was suicidal. I didn't know how my kids would cope even though they were young adults. I was lying to everyone and my heart was broken.
Today I have a wonderful new partner who tells me he loves me. But I've not been able to say it back. I'm so frightened of being hurt again or trusting someone so completely.
Yes I am in a much better place - physically and mentally. But there are still scars and that makes me angry - that I'm trying to make a new life for myself and still it hangs over me.
I think we are all stronger than we ever thought we would have to be - and we all deserve to be happy again.