Its that Friday check in Ladies x
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Afternoon lovlies x
Another week has flown, the weather has been so kind this week every day the sun has shown itself
I had today off as holiday so had a lovely much needed layin ( got up at 8am) popped to the local supermarket and got a few bits then went to my daughters to pick the furbaby up, she is with me for the weekend as my daughter and her boyfriend are away celebrating a special Birthday family member 60th ( they have rented a beautiful house near the coast ( bliss)
Soon as I got home I took the furbaby out we went to the woods, seeing the Daffodils and some other beautiful buds starting to grow through, spring is definitely here , there is something about just walking and not hav5to think of anything does wonders for my mind
No visit this weekend however I did have a video call with HC he is doing ok, the prison made an error with his next enrollment of his degree (so frustrating) so he has to wait for a couple of months, but he has gotten back in to reading again so will be keeping himself busy he is in a good place in his mindset so I cant ask for anymore x
I hope you can all find something to do for yourself over the weekend
Keep strong and don't forget how incredibly amazing you all are
Love sent as always xx
Another week has flown, the weather has been so kind this week every day the sun has shown itself
I had today off as holiday so had a lovely much needed layin ( got up at 8am) popped to the local supermarket and got a few bits then went to my daughters to pick the furbaby up, she is with me for the weekend as my daughter and her boyfriend are away celebrating a special Birthday family member 60th ( they have rented a beautiful house near the coast ( bliss)
Soon as I got home I took the furbaby out we went to the woods, seeing the Daffodils and some other beautiful buds starting to grow through, spring is definitely here , there is something about just walking and not hav5to think of anything does wonders for my mind
No visit this weekend however I did have a video call with HC he is doing ok, the prison made an error with his next enrollment of his degree (so frustrating) so he has to wait for a couple of months, but he has gotten back in to reading again so will be keeping himself busy he is in a good place in his mindset so I cant ask for anymore x
I hope you can all find something to do for yourself over the weekend
Keep strong and don't forget how incredibly amazing you all are
Love sent as always xx
Hi Friday check in,
a quiet week here. Loving the signs of spring and the brighter days. I've recently self referred back to ss and will update once it's over and I've processed it all. It feels like preparing for battle when actually all I'm asking for is to be able to live life on my terms. Hoping for better days ahead for everyone on here. Lots of love as always xxx
a quiet week here. Loving the signs of spring and the brighter days. I've recently self referred back to ss and will update once it's over and I've processed it all. It feels like preparing for battle when actually all I'm asking for is to be able to live life on my terms. Hoping for better days ahead for everyone on here. Lots of love as always xxx
It's been a tough week - I had taken the week off work and had planned a few day trips as we've not been able to have a holiday since this all started. But my elderly mum was taken into hospital on Monday with heart failure (she's doing ok now but still in there) and I've spent the week between here and there and not done any of the lovely things we had planned.
Also the OIC called at the house Monday while we were out (unannounced) - OH spoke to him on the ring doorbell, and we have emailed to ask if there is any update (why else would he call round except perhaps to check up on OH) but of course we have heard nothing back and that is worrying us both too. We've also told him if he lets us know when he's coming we can make sure OH is there! It's not rocket science!
I think this week has been one of the worst mood wise for me which is unusual and I don't like feeling this way but I just can't shake off the blues.
But - had lunch out today with friends, who know the situation and are fabulous and supportive.
Hoping everyone has a good weekend. Xxx
Also the OIC called at the house Monday while we were out (unannounced) - OH spoke to him on the ring doorbell, and we have emailed to ask if there is any update (why else would he call round except perhaps to check up on OH) but of course we have heard nothing back and that is worrying us both too. We've also told him if he lets us know when he's coming we can make sure OH is there! It's not rocket science!
I think this week has been one of the worst mood wise for me which is unusual and I don't like feeling this way but I just can't shake off the blues.
But - had lunch out today with friends, who know the situation and are fabulous and supportive.
Hoping everyone has a good weekend. Xxx
Hello friday check in
well it took three attempts to get in so thats how my day has gone. New computer in work that does not give me everything i need. Can use my old one while i sort it out but it has given me a huge headache. But that is a next week problem.
Had a lovely walk in the woods last weekend, but working both days this weekend and all of next week. But will try and get out for a walk before it gets dark to get some air. As this weather has been really nice seeing the yellow thing in the sky that we forget what it is. At the moment i have to get up at sunrise, and with each day i try and remind myself this is a new day. Whatever is happening in our lives, the sun will set and rise again tomorrow. I try and use this to centre myself.
Havent been to the gym this week, so hoping to go swimming after work tomorrow. I find it very calming and then the jacuzzi. I say swimming its a couple of lengths, soak in the water and then into the jacuzzi, but its better than not moving at all and gets me out of the house. And of course my line dancing.
I hope everyone manages one nice thing this weekend, five minutes with a glass of wine/beer/baileys. A read of a book. A film on tv with popcorn. Anything to give yourself a little joy in the journey.
love to you all. Xx
well it took three attempts to get in so thats how my day has gone. New computer in work that does not give me everything i need. Can use my old one while i sort it out but it has given me a huge headache. But that is a next week problem.
Had a lovely walk in the woods last weekend, but working both days this weekend and all of next week. But will try and get out for a walk before it gets dark to get some air. As this weather has been really nice seeing the yellow thing in the sky that we forget what it is. At the moment i have to get up at sunrise, and with each day i try and remind myself this is a new day. Whatever is happening in our lives, the sun will set and rise again tomorrow. I try and use this to centre myself.
Havent been to the gym this week, so hoping to go swimming after work tomorrow. I find it very calming and then the jacuzzi. I say swimming its a couple of lengths, soak in the water and then into the jacuzzi, but its better than not moving at all and gets me out of the house. And of course my line dancing.
I hope everyone manages one nice thing this weekend, five minutes with a glass of wine/beer/baileys. A read of a book. A film on tv with popcorn. Anything to give yourself a little joy in the journey.
love to you all. Xx
Hi,
It's been a topsy turvy week for me. A month today since my partner went to prison but I haven't seen him since just a few days before that. I have spoken to him for a total of 11 minutes in that time and not at all in the last 2 weeks. I am feeling all the feelings at the same time. It is taking forever to get anything sorted in prison and I'm doing my best to advocate for him whilst also getting increasingly upset that he has put us in this position.
Yesterday was the first tearless day in a month and for the first time I realised that our relationship is unlikely to ever be what I hoped it would be and that has made my heart heavy. Today I am a little bit more hopeful. I don't know what tomorrow will bring.
I am intent on not making any decisions until I have to. I've started looking at the Inform course and other resources to try to educate myself and also how to put a safety plan together. I am trying to be proactive.
I am still under the mental health crisis management team and my GP was been wonderfully supportive. Both teams have been incredibly responsive to my needs and in prescribing medication to get me through the days and nights and slowly, I'm able to see that his too shall pass.....although I cannot see when.
My priority right now is to make contact with my partner. I'm desperate to speak to him and see him. I need to know he's ok and I need him to know that I'm far from it....and go from there x
It's been a topsy turvy week for me. A month today since my partner went to prison but I haven't seen him since just a few days before that. I have spoken to him for a total of 11 minutes in that time and not at all in the last 2 weeks. I am feeling all the feelings at the same time. It is taking forever to get anything sorted in prison and I'm doing my best to advocate for him whilst also getting increasingly upset that he has put us in this position.
Yesterday was the first tearless day in a month and for the first time I realised that our relationship is unlikely to ever be what I hoped it would be and that has made my heart heavy. Today I am a little bit more hopeful. I don't know what tomorrow will bring.
I am intent on not making any decisions until I have to. I've started looking at the Inform course and other resources to try to educate myself and also how to put a safety plan together. I am trying to be proactive.
I am still under the mental health crisis management team and my GP was been wonderfully supportive. Both teams have been incredibly responsive to my needs and in prescribing medication to get me through the days and nights and slowly, I'm able to see that his too shall pass.....although I cannot see when.
My priority right now is to make contact with my partner. I'm desperate to speak to him and see him. I need to know he's ok and I need him to know that I'm far from it....and go from there x
I spent last weekend in London with family and had a great time. We walked along the canal, visited some National Trust sights and went to St Paul's cathedral.
Work is incredibly busy at the moment and I find it hard to come home and switch off from it when it's like that but I've managed to spend today relaxing and taking some time for myself.
I've decided to try journaling during lent this year and am focusing on gratitude, so today I'm grateful for the fact I have a job which enables me to buy food for my family and keep a roof over our heads.
Despite the chaos of life my hope is that there is always something we can be grateful for.
Work is incredibly busy at the moment and I find it hard to come home and switch off from it when it's like that but I've managed to spend today relaxing and taking some time for myself.
I've decided to try journaling during lent this year and am focusing on gratitude, so today I'm grateful for the fact I have a job which enables me to buy food for my family and keep a roof over our heads.
Despite the chaos of life my hope is that there is always something we can be grateful for.
This week has been rough, a really rollercoaster of emotions. Monday I was so low, Tuesday a little better (plus it was pancake day!), Wednesday was a day full of anger, Thursday was sad, but I went out with my best friend so it was good to talk. My OH was really suffering that day with anxiety and fear. Today has been OK, and me and my OH actually laughed together. Which of course I felt guilty about. How dare we both laugh whilst in this situation! Eurgh. Tomorrow he's going away for the day to get outdoors somewhere he feels safe and that holds good memories. I'm really looking forward to him not being around. I really wish he'd stay over for a night, but he can't afford it with paying for counselling through Stop So.
I'm meeting a friend in the morning, which I'm half looking forward to, half dreading, as she knows things aren't good at home, but no details. I have to be strong and not tell her the truth, even though i could do with all the support i can get. Then I need to work for the rest of the day. Sunday I'm doing some gardening and DIY. I'm going to try really hard to give my brain a rest from thinking and worrying about what's going to happen in the future, but it's not easy.
I hope you can all give your brains a break too. Xx
I'm meeting a friend in the morning, which I'm half looking forward to, half dreading, as she knows things aren't good at home, but no details. I have to be strong and not tell her the truth, even though i could do with all the support i can get. Then I need to work for the rest of the day. Sunday I'm doing some gardening and DIY. I'm going to try really hard to give my brain a rest from thinking and worrying about what's going to happen in the future, but it's not easy.
I hope you can all give your brains a break too. Xx
How I love to read positivity - so thanks Upset for making this weekly space for us to air, yes our woes (which is enevitable in our journey). But I also feel we must promote the normal times in our week, to sprinkle out hope to our friends that might not feel it at the moment.
I'm all good as is my son. I too love this glorious sunshine - had a chilly edge but how wonderful to see all the spring colours and smell the blossoms.
At times I feel sad my son is not free to breathe in all this but as a gardener he spends a lot of time outdoors which is so good for his mental health.
So if your feeling a little gloomy aim to focus on the positive aspects of your life (I thoroughly understand for you the light might not be shining at the moment) but hope and positivity does lurk there, even in small doses.
Take care everyone x
I'm all good as is my son. I too love this glorious sunshine - had a chilly edge but how wonderful to see all the spring colours and smell the blossoms.
At times I feel sad my son is not free to breathe in all this but as a gardener he spends a lot of time outdoors which is so good for his mental health.
So if your feeling a little gloomy aim to focus on the positive aspects of your life (I thoroughly understand for you the light might not be shining at the moment) but hope and positivity does lurk there, even in small doses.
Take care everyone x
Hello, it's been a while since I was here (well, I've lurked but not posted)
Hugs to all that need them.
I get my son back next week, which I'm over the moon about. It's been one hell of a journey from the knock, to his court case and through to him breaking his sentencing conditions (which brought me here - I was so angry in hy first post, thinking he'd done it again, which it then turned out he hadn't, but he ended up in prison anyway, thanks to being evicted shifts on remand)
He's technically homeless as he's not allowed back here but thankfully a local smallholder is going to let him stay in n old caravan he has, so at least he'll be relatively safe.
I'm just so grateful for all the support I've had in the few months I've been here on and off. I've a feeling there'll be more questions from me in the coming months on things like jobs and housing etc.
Hugs to all that need them.
I get my son back next week, which I'm over the moon about. It's been one hell of a journey from the knock, to his court case and through to him breaking his sentencing conditions (which brought me here - I was so angry in hy first post, thinking he'd done it again, which it then turned out he hadn't, but he ended up in prison anyway, thanks to being evicted shifts on remand)
He's technically homeless as he's not allowed back here but thankfully a local smallholder is going to let him stay in n old caravan he has, so at least he'll be relatively safe.
I'm just so grateful for all the support I've had in the few months I've been here on and off. I've a feeling there'll be more questions from me in the coming months on things like jobs and housing etc.