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Dreaming

Member since
February 2024

22 posts

Hi everyone

So yesterday we had magistrates court. I am here because of my son. We have now got a date for crown court. I just feel so sad today and down it's just facing everything isn't it usually I try to snap out of it and put an act on that everything is fine and carry on as normal like we do, but think being at court has just mad it all so real that I feel like I can't bounce back.I have been so upset since and feel like I can't face anyone or anything.

Just needed a rant

Thankyou

Posted Sat April 26, 2025 5:31pmReport post

Lost in the dark

Member since
November 2024

76 posts

Hi, I was there with those same feelings and emotions you are experiencing. I don't want to say at this stage it gets any easier, however can with ease tell you for us, since sentencing, which was published, our lives have changed little and I feel so much better than I did during the 3 years following the knock.

An enormous weight was lifted from my back the moment we left court. I don't live with that gut wrenching ache every day the fear I could cry at any moment!

I wish you all the very best x

Posted Sat April 26, 2025 8:26pmReport post

Dreaming

Member since
February 2024

22 posts

Thankyou for your reply.

It's good to hear that, at the moment I'm just finding it hard and am dreading it being made public.

Yes I feel like I have being living a lie so I can imagine a sense if relief when this part is over hopefully.

Thankyou

Posted Sat April 26, 2025 10:26pmReport post

Starr

Member since
December 2024

155 posts

That horrible deep sadness is awful isn't it?

I've had it this evening. I feel completely devastated and full of fear. It's a horrible combination.

We haven't faced court yet but I imagine it's almost surreal. But it's a step closer to being able to start to put it all behind you.

I hope you can rest tonight, even if you don't sleep very much.

Thinking of you and your son (also a mum on this nightmare journey)

X x

Posted Sun April 27, 2025 1:03amReport post

Dreaming

Member since
February 2024

22 posts

Thankyou Star,

Yes think it all becomes so real as before you sort of feel you are living a double life. The one no one knows about and you try and out a smile on and act as though everything is fine and then this nightmare one.

Finding it hard to snap out of it all this time. But like you say its nearing the other chapter.

Thankyou for your reply also thinking of you and everyone else going through this nightmare that none of us asked for.

Posted Sun April 27, 2025 6:13amReport post

Upset mum

Member since
June 2020

2490 posts

Dreaming x

Huge hugs sent to you xx

I am her because of my son also and I can totally relate to how you are feeling, so please know you are not alone

How is your son doing?xx

Posted Sun April 27, 2025 5:03pmReport post

EBP

Member since
September 2021

231 posts

Feeling low

Your sadness is perfectly understandable and many of us have felt the same.

I remember sobbing in my husband's arms when our son was sentenced.
You try so hard to keep it together & put on a 'normal face' while investigations are continuing. We hid our situation for two years before we told his siblings. They were really upset for us & our well-being. That has been the reaction of 99% of those that know. I can't believe we carried that burden for two years!



Now our new normal is prison visits & nightly phone calls. I would never ever expected this to happen.

Best wishes for a positive outcome. Keep posting your feelings. It's the only safe space.

Posted Mon April 28, 2025 12:45pmReport post

Dreaming

Member since
February 2024

22 posts

Thankyou all for your kind words and advice

Posted Mon April 28, 2025 8:54pmReport post

Mum50

Member since
December 2021

54 posts

I know how you are feeling I have being living a lie for 3 years.

My son is off to court on Tuesday really don't know what to expect and not looking forward to everybody finding out.

It's a scary time for all but I need it to be over now so I don't have paint a smile on my face and pretending everything us fine.

Sending you good thoughts

Posted Sun May 4, 2025 7:29pmReport post

EllBee

Member since
April 2022

178 posts

Thinking of you all who have court coming up. I wish you much strength, courage, and a lack of media!!! Love from the rest of us Xx

Posted Sun May 4, 2025 9:46pmReport post

Dreaming

Member since
February 2024

22 posts

Thankyou for your replies.

We are all in this nightmare situation that we didn't ask for.

Mom50 hope things go OK today please update how you get on ,if you feel up to it .

Thinking of everyone and Thankyou for your replies this group has helped me so much .

Posted Tue May 6, 2025 6:56amReport post

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