Monday malaise
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I know a lot of you on here struggle with weekends, but for me it's Mondays. I'm trying to fill my weekends with either nice things to do, whether that includes my idiot husband or not, or being productive. But when I get back to my normal routine - getting up, working from home, eat, sleep, it's there at the forefront again..
It feels worse today because I spent an absolutely lovely weekend with one of my closest friends that know. She was also betrayed by her husband (infidelity) years ago, so it was good to talk to sometime who's also been subjected to trauma by someone they loved. I feel like I'm edging closer to the decision to end my relationship, and jeez, does that hurt. I'm not quite ready yet, but i know that bail is extended till August, and then more than likely till November. I'm not confident that bail won't be extended past November, and even if it's not, it's still weeks till sentencing. He knows he can't be at home once charges are brought anyway, but I'm not sure how long I can live in this limbo for.
EDIT...I've just realised why I feel particularly low today. Its 13 years today since me and my husband got together. Not that he'll remember.
It feels worse today because I spent an absolutely lovely weekend with one of my closest friends that know. She was also betrayed by her husband (infidelity) years ago, so it was good to talk to sometime who's also been subjected to trauma by someone they loved. I feel like I'm edging closer to the decision to end my relationship, and jeez, does that hurt. I'm not quite ready yet, but i know that bail is extended till August, and then more than likely till November. I'm not confident that bail won't be extended past November, and even if it's not, it's still weeks till sentencing. He knows he can't be at home once charges are brought anyway, but I'm not sure how long I can live in this limbo for.
EDIT...I've just realised why I feel particularly low today. Its 13 years today since me and my husband got together. Not that he'll remember.
Oh Poppet, I feel for you.
Can you do something nice this evening? A takeaway? Hot bath, long walk, favourite film - or whatever your go to things are?
Thinking of you x x
Can you do something nice this evening? A takeaway? Hot bath, long walk, favourite film - or whatever your go to things are?
Thinking of you x x
Thankyou Starr. I got through it OK, with the help of work and box sets. Next one is the wedding anniversary in July, but I'll deal with that when it arrives.
Take care xx
Take care xx
Glad you got through it..can you get some vague ideas together for July? Something just for you?
That's a really good idea. It'll be a Friday too. Thankyou x