2nd interview outcome
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OH had his second interview on Monday.
I suppose it could have been worse - but it was bad enough.
Aside from the one conversation we knew about, a search of his phone found one further conversation with a pre teen, one image and one moving image.
On Monday I was in shock and beyond angry. He still maintains he didn't know they were underage - he was in a terrible place mentally.
Since arrest he has worked hard and so have I, both doing all we can to rebuild.
But these further revelations have taken us right back to square one when he was suicidal and I was broken.
On top of all this my mum is recieving end of life care and I feel like I'm drowning.
I love my OH but I don't know if I can get past the age of the second conversation. Every time I close my eyes it hits me - it's revolting. He did something unforgivable. But he says he didn't know - I don't know if I believe him and even if I do I still feel physically sick at the thought of it.
It's gone to CPS now so again we wait, while I sit by mum waiting for her to die.
I don't know how to get through this.
I suppose it could have been worse - but it was bad enough.
Aside from the one conversation we knew about, a search of his phone found one further conversation with a pre teen, one image and one moving image.
On Monday I was in shock and beyond angry. He still maintains he didn't know they were underage - he was in a terrible place mentally.
Since arrest he has worked hard and so have I, both doing all we can to rebuild.
But these further revelations have taken us right back to square one when he was suicidal and I was broken.
On top of all this my mum is recieving end of life care and I feel like I'm drowning.
I love my OH but I don't know if I can get past the age of the second conversation. Every time I close my eyes it hits me - it's revolting. He did something unforgivable. But he says he didn't know - I don't know if I believe him and even if I do I still feel physically sick at the thought of it.
It's gone to CPS now so again we wait, while I sit by mum waiting for her to die.
I don't know how to get through this.
Here's a hand to hold xx
And here's another hand to hold xx
And another xx
Lost x
Sending huge amounts of love and strength xxx
Sending huge amounts of love and strength xxx
Here's yet another hand to hold, and one to reach for the tissues/wine/tea/cake xx
I'm so sorry. That is a lot!
Thinking of you! This sounds an awful lot. Please be kind to yourself xx
I'm so sorry for all you're having to deal with. I'm in no position to say what you should/could do with regard to your relationship with him, however, peace of mind is incredibly important. I trusted my ex to never do this sort of thing again but he did, and it's destroyed me and family. I wish you every strength as you try to navigate all this. X
Mum passed away at 1am this morning.
The only saving grace is she'll never need to know about what her son in law did
Thank you for all the hands to hold - they were appreciated xx
The only saving grace is she'll never need to know about what her son in law did
Thank you for all the hands to hold - they were appreciated xx
Sending so much love and hugs your way. I'm so sorry for your loss x
So sorry for your loss lostinthewoods, there are no words for what you're coping with at the moment! X
Oh Lost you are going through so much. I'm so very sorry x
So so sorry about your dear Mum, what a thing to go through now. Sending huge hugs, we are all here for you X
So sorry for your loss. Just heartbreaking. Sending hugs xx
Lostinthewoods, im so sorry for your loss. Big hugs x
I am so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself today.
So sorry x
Lost - I am so sorry about your lovely Mum , it's so very had for you with everything else going on too. I lost my mum a few months before our nightmare started , I totally understand what you're going through xx
Sorry to hear this
Extremely sorry for your loss.. Please know there are so many of us here with you at any point you need our support
Sending love x
Sending love x