I’m not angry anymore, well sometimes I am.
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I was listening to a song on an album I enjoy. And the lyric has really stuck with me.
"I'm not angry anymore, well sometimes I am."
"depends on the day the extent of all my worthless rage"
Don't get me wrong I was angry. I was furious. And sometimes I still am. I feel I need to feel that anger to keep me morally grounded and focused on how awful what he did was. But I can't be angry forever, I can't be angry all the time.
I feel the anger when I need to and I let him know I'm still angry. But sometimes I'm not.
and sometimes I'm sad and upset and appalled and in disbelief. Sometimes I'm full of fear. I feel anger for all you on the forum when I read posts and I feel anger for all the victims out there. On balance sometimes I'm happy and I laugh and I enjoy life and I ignore the voice at the back of my brain saying but "look what he did". I deserve to feel that happiness.
I've done the inform course, I've done some research. I've talked to him at length and then some more. I've shifted my views and wish desperately that we could shift as a society to support more to stop the offending so that children don't get hurt, don't become victims to begin with. And sometimes I'm angry at society and sometimes I'm not.
Come charges, anything else the investigation may bring to light, court and sentencing, I might be angry more. I probably will be. But for now I'm not angry anymore, well sometimes I am.
"I'm not angry anymore, well sometimes I am."
"depends on the day the extent of all my worthless rage"
Don't get me wrong I was angry. I was furious. And sometimes I still am. I feel I need to feel that anger to keep me morally grounded and focused on how awful what he did was. But I can't be angry forever, I can't be angry all the time.
I feel the anger when I need to and I let him know I'm still angry. But sometimes I'm not.
and sometimes I'm sad and upset and appalled and in disbelief. Sometimes I'm full of fear. I feel anger for all you on the forum when I read posts and I feel anger for all the victims out there. On balance sometimes I'm happy and I laugh and I enjoy life and I ignore the voice at the back of my brain saying but "look what he did". I deserve to feel that happiness.
I've done the inform course, I've done some research. I've talked to him at length and then some more. I've shifted my views and wish desperately that we could shift as a society to support more to stop the offending so that children don't get hurt, don't become victims to begin with. And sometimes I'm angry at society and sometimes I'm not.
Come charges, anything else the investigation may bring to light, court and sentencing, I might be angry more. I probably will be. But for now I'm not angry anymore, well sometimes I am.
My overwhelming emotion is sadness rather than anger.
I now don't want him in my life in any form. Not sure I can ever forgive him for what he put me through.
But there is no point being butter as this will spoil my life going forward. And he's certainly now worth that.
I now don't want him in my life in any form. Not sure I can ever forgive him for what he put me through.
But there is no point being butter as this will spoil my life going forward. And he's certainly now worth that.
I'm still livid that my person who id been with for 30 years and had children with, couldn't seek the help he so desperately needed and that we all deserved when he started having sexual feelings towards children at the age of 12/13. I wonder how different all our lives might've turned out. But he couldn't. He was too scared. Scared he'd get arrested, scared I'd lose my children. In the end far worse happened because at age 47 he couldn't keep a lid on it anymore.
I've been looking into the work of the Circles groups and I'm super impressed by how much these circles stop reoffending. I'm sure much much more could be done to prevent it all in the first place but unfortunately, hysteria has gotten in the way.
I've been looking into the work of the Circles groups and I'm super impressed by how much these circles stop reoffending. I'm sure much much more could be done to prevent it all in the first place but unfortunately, hysteria has gotten in the way.
Very well said. I'm surprised how I can go from being okay to being sad to being angry. Sometimes it feels like it happens within seconds.