1 year post knock
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1 year to the day since my life changed... not for the better! I really miss my old life!
Lost my bestest friend recently due to it. Now I go between understanding why and then feeling angry for her abandoning me during the worst time of my life.
2nd interview was 1st may... still waiting for charges from the CPS. Now I feel I have a new fear of everytime we get post. At least its safe on Sundays!
What a life eh. Tried to keep myself busy today, been for a dog walk and then a swim. It's weird, when I do my fitness classes I feel at ease to know noone knows me and my situation!
Now with the upcoming charges and court I feel scared to make plans with anyone incase they find out beforehand... baby showers, spa days. But life goes on doesnt it until we know otherwise.
There was totally no point to this post, just nice to write down your thoughts and feelings as im standing waiting for my lunch to cook haha. Hope everyone has a nice day x
Lost my bestest friend recently due to it. Now I go between understanding why and then feeling angry for her abandoning me during the worst time of my life.
2nd interview was 1st may... still waiting for charges from the CPS. Now I feel I have a new fear of everytime we get post. At least its safe on Sundays!
What a life eh. Tried to keep myself busy today, been for a dog walk and then a swim. It's weird, when I do my fitness classes I feel at ease to know noone knows me and my situation!
Now with the upcoming charges and court I feel scared to make plans with anyone incase they find out beforehand... baby showers, spa days. But life goes on doesnt it until we know otherwise.
There was totally no point to this post, just nice to write down your thoughts and feelings as im standing waiting for my lunch to cook haha. Hope everyone has a nice day x
Hi ya
So sorry you lost your best friend that is really sad. Its hard enough going through this, but telling people is the worst! A best friend is supposed to support you no matter what happens and you have done nothing wrong.
I often sit and wonder how I would react if my friend told me something of this nature. Im sure I would react very differently now.
Xx
So sorry you lost your best friend that is really sad. Its hard enough going through this, but telling people is the worst! A best friend is supposed to support you no matter what happens and you have done nothing wrong.
I often sit and wonder how I would react if my friend told me something of this nature. Im sure I would react very differently now.
Xx
Yeah I am the same, you never know how you would react unless you have to go through it yourself.
I think people see it as a very black and white situation, and that isn't the case. She has a 7 month old baby, a first time parent, so I do understand its just so sad that im being punished too. I'm lucky though too I have plenty of other support from other friends and family!
I think people see it as a very black and white situation, and that isn't the case. She has a 7 month old baby, a first time parent, so I do understand its just so sad that im being punished too. I'm lucky though too I have plenty of other support from other friends and family!
That's especially hard as they have a new baby and first time parent.
Still sucks though, u have done nothing wrong and dont deserve that, I feel we will always be punished for sticking by our OH. Its something we just have to deal with though isnt it.
Im glad u have other friends and family that are supporting you.
Im always here if u need a chat, not sure what help I could be as I'm even earlier on in the process than you are but am here for u all the same xx
Still sucks though, u have done nothing wrong and dont deserve that, I feel we will always be punished for sticking by our OH. Its something we just have to deal with though isnt it.
Im glad u have other friends and family that are supporting you.
Im always here if u need a chat, not sure what help I could be as I'm even earlier on in the process than you are but am here for u all the same xx
Thanks so much!
Hope all is as well as it can be for you too!
Hope all is as well as it can be for you too!
Thank you for posting this, I haven't told anyone yet (knock was 3 months ago) but do feel would be judged for staying and supporting. I don't support what OH has been accused of in any way but that doesn't define who they are. Feel so very alone and scared of what future might hold. Becoming bit obsessed with this forum looking for glimmers of hope and to not feel quite so isolated.
Hi Emma
It's definitely a lonely road to be on. The one person you want to cry to is the one who has caused it! but I totally understand about the becoming obsessed with the forum, im on here multiple times a day, i suppose its comforting in a sense to know others are going through the same.
It is very good to talk to people you trust as it doesn't help to deal with it all on your own. Unfortunately its a risk of how people will take it but you cant change people's opinions but it's also hard to pretend everything is okay when people ask 'so what you been up to? How have you been?'
Hope you are okay!
It's definitely a lonely road to be on. The one person you want to cry to is the one who has caused it! but I totally understand about the becoming obsessed with the forum, im on here multiple times a day, i suppose its comforting in a sense to know others are going through the same.
It is very good to talk to people you trust as it doesn't help to deal with it all on your own. Unfortunately its a risk of how people will take it but you cant change people's opinions but it's also hard to pretend everything is okay when people ask 'so what you been up to? How have you been?'
Hope you are okay!
Hi everyone
Regarding telling family and friends. We received the knock in September 2023 and my husband was charged with downloading IIOC. He denied all this and I was waiting to hear the charges were dropped.
However unknown to me he had been to court and was due to be sentenced in November 2024. The day before this court hearing my husband took his life. I had no idea of any of this until the police found his body.
I have not told a soul about this. The only people that know are my daughter aged 26 and mu sister. All his friends and family plus my friends and family have asked what happened but I will never disclose this to anyone. It will go with me to my grave.
What mu husband did was wrong but I cannot face the thought of people judging me and judging what my husband did. I am now receiving counselling. I just feel how can I be angry with him when he took his life? He knew he had done wrong and saw no other way out.
There are so many emotions going through my head. It's an awful situation to be in.
Wishing you the best of luck as you continue your journey
Regarding telling family and friends. We received the knock in September 2023 and my husband was charged with downloading IIOC. He denied all this and I was waiting to hear the charges were dropped.
However unknown to me he had been to court and was due to be sentenced in November 2024. The day before this court hearing my husband took his life. I had no idea of any of this until the police found his body.
I have not told a soul about this. The only people that know are my daughter aged 26 and mu sister. All his friends and family plus my friends and family have asked what happened but I will never disclose this to anyone. It will go with me to my grave.
What mu husband did was wrong but I cannot face the thought of people judging me and judging what my husband did. I am now receiving counselling. I just feel how can I be angry with him when he took his life? He knew he had done wrong and saw no other way out.
There are so many emotions going through my head. It's an awful situation to be in.
Wishing you the best of luck as you continue your journey