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I hope you know you are not alone. I am 4 weeks in and feel the same worries about finance, being able to provide my kids with same standard of living and trying to hold it all together. Take your time to grieve, I fluctuate between tears, anger, numbness and feeling ok. Remember to eat, hydrate and breathe. We can only take it day by day
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Bewildered you've been dreadfully hurt by something that is not your fault. Your mind may be all over the place for some time and there are so many unknowns. It seems these investigations rarely progress quickly so don't feel you have to rush into any decisions. Take your time and prioririse your own needs. You are very important and deserving of kindness and compassion - including your own.
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Your comment about lack of intimacy resonated with me. I was with my partner for 19 years and always had a problem in this area. I spent so long feeling unattractive and unwanted because I couldn't understand how someone could say they loved me but didn't see me that way. It eventually became normal life and no longer important to me. Knowing what I know now, it's clear why intimacy was a problem and it wasn't me, it was all him and his preferences. After he was bailed to his mums, I found a pile of sex toys in his wardrobe which shocked me. I rally had no idea who this man was. And that's shocked me. How are things for you now?
I know this won't be easy to hear right now, but at least he seems to have fessed up? So you can start planning straightaway. Anecdotally I've come across some awful cases of offenders stringing everyone along till the forensics comes back or even longer. You'll almost certainly have at least a year (probably closer to eighteen months / two years) before anything enters the public domain, IF it does. Also children can surprise you - I've been amazed at the maturity, wisdom and resilience mine have shown through all this. Luckily we were able to keep our (modest) house and we can mostly still afford their various hobbies (again nothing expensive), but we do have less and they've accepted that.