Today was a struggle one year since the knock
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Exactly a year today the nightmare began for my then 16yr old son and the family as a whole.
Today I've had flash backs to the worst days of our lives to which we are no closer to the end or even knowing exactly what he's done or what they think he's done.
Wondering when the devices will be back. On day of arrest we were told a year, well that times up now. We were told being checked 22nd March, that days long gone.
All we know is 'apparently' in the last month they've been outsourced.
Yeah you try get on with things whilst you wait and no longer wake in the night but its always there the wondering about the past and the future.
Today I've had flash backs to the worst days of our lives to which we are no closer to the end or even knowing exactly what he's done or what they think he's done.
Wondering when the devices will be back. On day of arrest we were told a year, well that times up now. We were told being checked 22nd March, that days long gone.
All we know is 'apparently' in the last month they've been outsourced.
Yeah you try get on with things whilst you wait and no longer wake in the night but its always there the wondering about the past and the future.
Hi,
we share a knock anniversary. I had a bit of a wobble on Tuesday after seeing your post in the young person section. Yesterday was 5 years for us. Life is very different now to when it first happened or even how it was at the 1 year mark. We've all come so far. I shared with my friends that yesterday I felt grateful but gutted at the same time, longing for a life that feels like the normal I had before.
I don't believe that the feelings ever leave us but over time the impact is less. I suppose it's like grief, in those early days it's there in every waking moment but over time the intensity decreases and life moves forward to create a new normal.
Sending you so much love and strength xxx
we share a knock anniversary. I had a bit of a wobble on Tuesday after seeing your post in the young person section. Yesterday was 5 years for us. Life is very different now to when it first happened or even how it was at the 1 year mark. We've all come so far. I shared with my friends that yesterday I felt grateful but gutted at the same time, longing for a life that feels like the normal I had before.
I don't believe that the feelings ever leave us but over time the impact is less. I suppose it's like grief, in those early days it's there in every waking moment but over time the intensity decreases and life moves forward to create a new normal.
Sending you so much love and strength xxx
Thank you. Its weird being part of a such supportive group for a club no one ever wants to be part of. It does liken to grief and the longing of a normal life that probably never be.
Sorry if my post triggered, hugs xx
Sorry if my post triggered, hugs xx