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For the longest time I've wanted to tell my other relatives about my ex's conviction, but I was just so afraid that I put it off until it was really too late, at first they were 110% supportive, listened to me, hugged me, everything.
But since then I know that I've lost them as family members, we've had a talk which turned into a shouting match and basicly being told that me and my parents who housed me have pretty much been cut off. I can't even begin to describe how guilty I feel for my parents that have done nothing but support me, my child and at the time my ex, especially now that my relatives want nothing to do with them.
I try and tell myself every day that it wasn't me that put us in this position, it was my ex husband that quite frankly keeps digging himself a bigger and bigger hole every day. He's the one that's destroyed our lives, our family, our future.
at the same time I just wish I told them sooner, that maybe if I did I wouldn't be in half of this mess but what's done is done. If anything, my parents and I often kind of joked about us moving away but now it looks like a real possiblity as the only thing really keeping us here was my relatives, and now we don't have them.
I will say though I am so thankful for my brother, he understood completely why at the time I wanted to stay, why I felt the way I did and the reasons for all my circumstances, and even when everyone was yelling, he took me to the side, hugged me and told me no matter what he would always be there for me. We've always been close, but with his actions showed me what true family and love is and I'll always appriciate that.
I suppose all I can really say for anyone out there in the same boat as me is there will be someone that really cares, someone that you can lean on and while things may not go the way you planned or wanted, there'll always be someone that will hold your hand through this x
But since then I know that I've lost them as family members, we've had a talk which turned into a shouting match and basicly being told that me and my parents who housed me have pretty much been cut off. I can't even begin to describe how guilty I feel for my parents that have done nothing but support me, my child and at the time my ex, especially now that my relatives want nothing to do with them.
I try and tell myself every day that it wasn't me that put us in this position, it was my ex husband that quite frankly keeps digging himself a bigger and bigger hole every day. He's the one that's destroyed our lives, our family, our future.
at the same time I just wish I told them sooner, that maybe if I did I wouldn't be in half of this mess but what's done is done. If anything, my parents and I often kind of joked about us moving away but now it looks like a real possiblity as the only thing really keeping us here was my relatives, and now we don't have them.
I will say though I am so thankful for my brother, he understood completely why at the time I wanted to stay, why I felt the way I did and the reasons for all my circumstances, and even when everyone was yelling, he took me to the side, hugged me and told me no matter what he would always be there for me. We've always been close, but with his actions showed me what true family and love is and I'll always appriciate that.
I suppose all I can really say for anyone out there in the same boat as me is there will be someone that really cares, someone that you can lean on and while things may not go the way you planned or wanted, there'll always be someone that will hold your hand through this x